I AM HOME!!! From a long night at npc and then to dhq for WHT... and yupx, I met Kel again ytrday afternoon before heading to night shift to have a late brunch as we both woke up at about 4pm.. havent wrk night shift for sometime liao and its really taxing... yawns... but Kel's hard-disc accompany me for the long night while I watch videos and movies...

Silly Aisah stayed in npc till 6am then went home to sleep and we had a long gd chat in her office.. simply love my ladygirl.. Kel was thinking of going out for some shopping today but I guess I am giving it a miss... at night meeting my ladies for new moon... woohoo...

Tmr is the NYDP camp.. yeah yeah, its been a long time since i last went camping... and wont be seeing Kel for this few days, unless he really wana come on wed which i told him better not coz not very gd for kids to be there as he will bring benben along.. lets celebrate benben bday when my camp ended, this few days, stay hOME!!! hahah..

Looking forward to my trip with the ladies 22-26Jan!!! SHOP SHOP SHOP!!! Bangkok we are coming!!!

Its a tiring day at work... engaged non stop from takeover until 7plus when handing over still got complainant... "Pai tan"!

Just reached home from outing with my ladies and then Kelvin... After work, met my ladies for a short supper session at UBT for noodles(but I didnt eat except the sotong balls) and then met Kelvin and we went to Adam Rd for the prawn noodles, but I only had the soup and three big prawns... nice de wor.. Kelvin is really a glutton... he knows where to go always for good food... after that we went to loyang to pray again while we talk under the moon for an hour or so when he sees that my eyes r tired and we head back to his place... as i am driving this time round, i drive him back (the 2nd time out of countless time of outing)... went up to his place and played with his maltese "Yuki" for awhile, chitchat and then head back... and here I am, typing this blog... thks for always being there whenever I feel down... U r really appreciated!

He mention meeting up in the afternoon later... let's see if i can wake up on time... yawns... and he wanted to bring me out for shopping on monday when benben at child care... see how ba... coz i need some rest before meeting my ladies at nite for NEW MOON!!! woohoo...

*Why am I so happy?"

His Cutie Little Maltese

Woke up early in the morning at 9am and saw one unread msg shown on my mobile phone... the first thought of it is ray as he is always the first who msg me daily for the past three years.. but i remind myself that, no cant be him.. you are no longer inside his heart, he msg u for wat... sigh.. and eagerly i go, opening msg, and the name pop out, BP KELVIN YUEN! Well well well, and he was thinking of me middle of the night... *faint* just what are you doing at 2.45am in the morning and not sleeping, tot u were so tired when u fetch me ytrday... hmm... and just duno why at this moment a song title came into my mind "Dang Ni Gu Dan Ni Hui Xiang Qi Shui"... and he is tinking of me... murahhahaha...

A smile shine on my face when I saw his name... weird but true..

In the afternoon, another msg came and pop... its him again.. and just woke up, why are u telling me ur movements.. hahaha.. and well, i told him my movement as well.. I told him I am going running in the evening and he told me he is staying at home.. and so, the msging stopped... but when I reach NPC at 5pm, I saw him inside the team office.. and he was like "Surprise!"... silly man.. and once again, the smile shine on my face...

The two times(Countable in three years) that Ray gave me surprise is on our first mth anni, he bought a ring and came over to my place.. when he told me he needs to work.. that's very sweet... sigh.. and the other time, before I went for incamp training, he bought cookies, titbits and sweets for me... a surprise visit in the late night... imissu! Hope u doing fine... I am doing well so no worries... as the Iphone is not going to end up in his hands.. i will use it!!!

I AM SO INTO THE WHITE 16GB iphone..

Alright, gotta go now.. fetching Aimei's mummy and heading down to airport for their flea market!! SUPPORT!!!! While kelvin dine alone tonight... poor thing... but canot meet everyday, if not we will grow sick and tired.. hahaha.. *Be careful when u drive up to JB tonight, i gotta be with my ladies!*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LADYGIRL CHAN YUEN LU!!!!

Hope you like the surprise that we have given you!! Hee...

Recce in the afternoon, sleep is not enough and my body is aching from the run yesterday.. Had a long night ytrday and he is there in NPC to cheer me up, being sensitive is him and while I am in deep thoughts standing outside thinking of the conversation i used to have with Ray, he came out, and ask if I am fine... "You are always so sensitive, thank you!" After that, I went up to the male locker room and saw this silly man sleeping on the sofa.. "u could have just went home and sleep!"

Also thanks Kelvin for ferrying me here and there today... Appreciate it! After fetching me, he brought me to have some nice food, yes food again at Bt Merah, followed by some time together at Kent ridge park... he is a nice and romantic guy... My ladies, u guys can rest assured...

Gave Lu a surprise at her house just now, and we were talking about how to spend our xmas party, and Mei is telling me to bring Kelvin along... hmm, shall see how... hahaha...

Going to sleep le.. tmr got meeting at 10am and after that going to SUPPORT mei n lu at their flea market... jiayou gers... Thanks LuLu for the bag, ILOVEIT!!!

YVONNE'S BACK! YES I AM BACK!

I oo the phone which is suppose to be dead, so dead for the past one week and I saw all his missed calls... thanks for concerning... so tempted to call him back, but i control... he is having his own life now, and I am picking myself up.. NO!!!!!

I promise I will be fine... taking my time to slowly enjoy my life and let go now.. short trip here and there really does help.. crying does release stress.. eating good food around Singapore and Msia with Kelvin also makes me feel like there is so much more in life to enjoy.. i will be fine. I am stronger.. I PROMISE!

I have decided to release him, no point hating him, it only make my life more miserable... tears are dry, heart is broken but mending slowly, places we have been to, memories we have with each other, is just part and parcel of my lfe.. I have decided to live life fullest... I will be fine.. As long as I keep telling myself this... it will soon be over... Like he said, there will be rainbow after the rain.. thanks ray.. for everything.. tears of joy and tears of sadness.. I appreciate everything... I am letting the hatred dissolves... seeing that he is happier now, its enough.. i give u my blessings.. and you dun have to worry about me anymore, i will be happy.. this i promise you.. take gd care of yourself..

Its better to have love and lost, then never to have love at all... I still miss our times together, but I am standing up..

Attempted suicide, insomnia, became crazy... they say, part and parcel of life... at least we were together before...

Treasuring everyone around me.. thanks everyone around me giving me support... thou pissed with what Vincent has done, but I know he has my interest in heart... but please, dun do such stuffs anymore... everything has come to light when saw that familiar number accidentally on his mobile when he was showing me the forwarded msg that Chris received... I didnt want him to be guilty, I am leading a better life... no point... I once hate him, but I am fine now... really am good... so everyone around me, dun do silly things anymore...

Going for some vegetarian food with Kelvin later, waiting for him to fetch me now, my body is aching from the run this morning.. i wan to sleep... YOU ARE SO LATE!!! *wait wait wait*