Yvonne is picking herself up from the mess that has happened... what don't kill me will only make me stronger... nearly gone once but have learnt from it... grow up alot... losing the precious and facing it alone most of the time... it has only make me become stronger... now what i need seriously is a BIG break... i wana do things i have not done before... reading the magazine... there is so many things that I have not done before... travelling alone, get ready drunk without any friends around, go bungee, etcetc... im heading out for a swim again tomolo... alone... i only feel refresh and awake when im inside the water... im learning to let go... seeing peiyun deal with it is so hard... we shall walk hand in hand together and overcome it my darling girl... and with so many friends around who loves me... i can do it...

Funny cabby

Partner William and JieYong today... fun and exciting day with chasing and laughing alot inside the car... and the hairy monkey william actually fell asleep while driving.. so tired little moneky... must be up to some monkey biz ytrday nite... hahaha... and look at the pic i have took... hey its a cab... how odd to see such a "sporty" cab... we laugh our lungs out when spotted this funny taxi... what is the earth coming to???!!!!!!

22nd Feb 2009

"i love u" done by him

Always that shy when ask him take photo

Oinky with "i love u"

Meet up with him on sunday as im not well on saturday and stayed home the whole day sleeping... we went to have dinner at KFC then watched "Slumdog millionaire" at Marina GV... initially wanted to eat swensens but my dearest oinky actually shop until forgot the time so ended up settling our lunch at kfc... yawnx... so, decide to go for swensens maybe on our next outing ba... slumdog actually have a nice storyline but its abit messy thou as it flashback here and there making me abit giddy... but the ending is a typical indian ending with dances and music... hahaha... after movie, walked ard at marina and suntec and subsequently went over to have dinner at AMK hub.. initally have other plans but as the time is late, we planned on our next meetup... hope to see u soon...

23 Feb 2009

Partner with Samir and the new OCT guy JieYong and it was a busy day... no break for the whole day but luckily i got two partners who take the initiative in doing everything especially samir... maybe coz he is going to ORD ba... haha... my little bro... be well after u enrol and teach in NIE... hahaha... noti little boy.. when time to take a break at 6pm... that idiot go take OE as well... make me and my two poor boys go for msg last min and engaged all the way... argh... hate him...

24 Feb 2009

Working night shift later... gotta go sleep again in awhile... and received a msg from some anoymous... stop bugging me bitch!!! get lost!!!

Angels last team event

IDOL & Me

Team Juliet 2009

Team ladies 2009

Juliet rowers

Went for dragonboat competition today at Kallang SDBA... had a fun day and most imptly get to know my idol... DY COM J DIV... he is so super handsome la... hahaha... from the above pic u have seen... a man i have seen almost ten years back on crime watch and he hasnt change abit since then... hahaa... he is the one that make me rush back from school or outings every once of the month to watch crimewatch... haha... that's why my idol... and partial reason why I join the force other than triple 9... hahaha... thou we only got fifth out of eleventh or twelveth teams... we are happy and contented... Dicky say we got coordination but perhaps abit slow that's why we lost... hmm... shall try again next time... enjoyed myself the fullest... but very very burnt and red now... like lobster... hehehe... GIRLS!!! WELL DONE!!!

Letting go...

He said a relationship is about sacrifice... but why is it for the past two years i am always the one sacrificing... i am not asking u to give up ur dreams... i am just asking u to defer for another two years.. so difficult... why isit its a must for me to let go of my family, career, friends and everything here just to follow u suit... and not u sacrificing another six months for me... if u say a relationship is about sacrifices... are u doing so? Havent i sacrifice enough?

Whose gf will tolerate bf sleep with another woman, cheated on her time and time again, different women come and go, late for almost every outing... Yun told me she salute me for doing so... am i really worth the salute? I guess many call me stupid... and i gradually admit... yes i am stupid and blind by the love... but i am not going to be blind anymore... so tired... so so so tired... can someone hug me???

I submitted the email... and when I told him that, instead of hugging me tight and say thank you... he asked, "why do u do so... i havent even get a place yet..." sacrifices? That bitch commented a month back, "Enjoy the year while u still can, for u will knw why soon..."... now i know why le... u are really heading over... to meet that bitch... true... for ur good... i shld sacrifice... i will, I am letting go for now... Perhaps this is what u wan... u always dun wana be the baddie... i will be one for now... I wont act "wei da"... everyone know me as a straightforward person... So Ray, I hate u to the core... two years... "thks" for everything...

*Thks for giving me the best of two years... I grow and learn alot... mummy say u are my first love... i guess so ba... two years... thks"

From him to her (Handmade roses)

From her to him (Special montege and Davidoff perfume)

Happy Vday my love

Met him for Vday celebration yesterday and it was a nice and sweet day after all... he has a handmade roses for me and even spray perfume in it... very sweet for a big man like him... but this might be our last vday together if i decide not to go US with him... a painful decision to be made because i will need to give up everything to go over with him... i have spoke to mummy and she ask me to decide myself... but her answer to me is not favourable... sigh... talked to alot of ppl but all not very favourable... sad!!! We went to have our lunch at Ajisen at Novena and then went to watch movie and shopping at Lido... watch "Look for a star" by Andy Lau and ShuQi... duno y but i sob while some parts, or i shld say many parts during the show... emo? or is it reflecting my love life now? Saw Azman and Tina with little Ricky after the show... OMG, lil ricky is super cute la... hahaha... but he is super shy when i tried to play with him... hahaha... i wan my own kids... hmm... midst of the movie, that bitch msg him again... and trying to act "stranger" when being asked who is she... irritating and spoilt my mood... but he keep assuring me and coax me... i hate her... purposely chose to msg on this special day and make me cry... BITCH!!!

Later going to see Dianya off at airport with those crazy L6... we gotta miss u my dearest yaya... take gd care of urself... there sure be teasr and laughter later... *tissue*

Finally have time to blog after days of running up and down... mummy was admitted to SGH on thurs and I took e-leave on sat to pei her... my poor mummy always will have a relapse if overwork and the insensitive boss still took everything for granted... hmmp!!! idiotic... and finally after days of running up and down hospital, while im resting at home today after yesterday tedious night shift, she call me and say... "u come fetch mummy later"... im so super excited... hee... and so, i woke up immediately and went over to fetch her.. hee... partner Halim and TL ytrday... hmm alot of msgs up till 4am but all is PAR... relax!!! eheheh...

After fetching mummy, went over to pray tai sui as today is the last day and its so super hot there la... wow, the heat there is really unbearable and one boy who look about 8-10yrs fainted while the ritual is on... poor boy... after praying then come home and sleep...

Supposely meeting him but we postpone it to tmr as he is having some discussion at granny's house... poor granny... and while blogging now... just received a sms from him saying that he is going washup.. ok shal wait for ur call.. heh.. and oh ya, mummy last min told me to send her to leilei there, wondering who is leilei... he is my mummy godson and he is just super FAT and cute... ahhaha... and here i am, blogging after the visiting and makan session at auntie zhu house... hehe

My dearest godbro, "Zi Lei"

*Looking forward to 14Feb2009*

Looking at death

When news and email was sent out yesterday about him dead, everyone was pondering... why, when, what happened... and i finally know how it happened after reading some news... he committed suicide by burning charcoal at home... its very sad when one young male of 27yrs just passed away like that and was only discovered moments later... he himself seen so much and handle with some many before but am not able to take it when it happened to him... Life is so fragile... but humans are not treasuring it... cancer patients wanted to live, but they do not have any chance... going thru chemo and lots of suffering and ended up still lost the battle, why cant ppl just treasure it when u are so healthy and fine... what is it on earth cant be solve that u need to leave everyone around you crying and shouting for ur name... Death... approaching yet so far away... im treasuring everyone around me especially mummy when life is just so unexpected...

If "U" lose me... remember my smiles and laughter... for that will always stay in ur heart....

Cake from us to dearest Yaya

L6 and sisters

Yours truly and the star (Yaya)

The whole group who contributed to the FUN

31Jan2009 - Its our two years and one month anniversary, two years back today, he gave me a surprise by telling me he got work and then appear suddenly under my block with a pair or couple ring and one red rose... very sweet huh... but on this day two years later... he came over to my house, again, but we then proceeded over to fetch godma at jurong west and later drive back to her house at CCK... after bai nian, we went to have a little shopping and eat at Lot One... after that, drove back to his place and he slept and i drove back home shortly after... meetup with my L6 at about 9pm and then have a surprise party for dianya planned solely by our dearest capable peiyun... she bk the room, cake, mixer etcetc all alone... so nice... celebrate and then went suppeer at xin wang and the party kinda ended... My dearest... pls take care of urself over at Sydney... we will miss u so much future art director...

Look at the COW behind us.. heheh

1Feb2009 - Have our lunch near upp thomson as they wanted something new, so i brought them to have the famous bak cho mee(my fave) and they all love it... hee... peiyun even want deserts after meal and all was reluctant... so full liao la... after that send them home and went home to take a short nap... evening time, lulu call me and told me to go outing... therefore meetup with the gang and we visited river ang bao... nothing much this year... hmm, boring.. shortly after, we went over to have our dinner at east coast and here am i, blogging and resting soon... tired two full days of fun and laughter...