A story of 2yrs 4mths 16days... something that i hold so much hopes... something that i put in so much... has ceased when i wanted it to.. he said im unreasonable.. well maybe im.. i felt insecure... shaky... how does it feels like when someone whom u r so close to suddenly is going to be a stranger of ur life... can someone tell mi? how am i going to overcome this shit that i never encounter before?
im afraid that i cant overcome it.. but denure told me.. "Girl, what don kill u only makes u stronger" a phrase so easy to say.. but so hard to achieve.. i salute jiejie... she is brave.. or is she? perhaps we have the same genes that is soft hearted.. but tis time.. it is nt like any other time.. i smile when we parted.. release? perhaps yes ba...
Chris told me.. "He is the key to ur heart, and also the lock in ur heart.. to unlock it... u need to search for the key.. take ur time.. no rush my dear vonie"... thank u chris.. i dare nt tell lulu n meimei.. i dun wan to affect them.. they r going to genting tmr.. dicky going to msia on sat.. my close pals r all nt going to be by my side tis time when things reali get tough.. i needa wander ard... all alone tis time round.. he used to be someone so close to my heart... to get rid totally and turn him into a stranger... I CAN DO IT!!!! going to take a long long break... i need support.. i need support... hugs used to be there... but becoz of him, i turn them all down and nw their hugs belongs to others...
on 30Mar2009... his msg that i love "Baby, i really love u.. wanna be with u.. play bowling with u every wkend.. spend time with u.. hug u every moment u need mi and walk with u tis lifetime".. our "lifetime" ended in 2yrs 4mths 16days... i am smiling... tearing... i will miss u... do take care... but from tis moment onwards.. we are totally stranger...
i AM SO TIRED... SO TIRED THAT I WANA CLOSe MY EyES AND SLeeP BUt NEvEr wAkE Up...
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