Alright... im his baby again and he is my bibi again... we will meetup to talk on sunday when both have cool down... am i unreasonable? am i just being shaky? what am i feeling? he told me he loves me... but we are two hot headed person... carrying on got future? holding on is it a right choice? i ponder...

A story of 2yrs 4mths 16days...

A story of 2yrs 4mths 16days... something that i hold so much hopes... something that i put in so much... has ceased when i wanted it to.. he said im unreasonable.. well maybe im.. i felt insecure... shaky... how does it feels like when someone whom u r so close to suddenly is going to be a stranger of ur life... can someone tell mi? how am i going to overcome this shit that i never encounter before?

im afraid that i cant overcome it.. but denure told me.. "Girl, what don kill u only makes u stronger" a phrase so easy to say.. but so hard to achieve.. i salute jiejie... she is brave.. or is she? perhaps we have the same genes that is soft hearted.. but tis time.. it is nt like any other time.. i smile when we parted.. release? perhaps yes ba...

Chris told me.. "He is the key to ur heart, and also the lock in ur heart.. to unlock it... u need to search for the key.. take ur time.. no rush my dear vonie"... thank u chris.. i dare nt tell lulu n meimei.. i dun wan to affect them.. they r going to genting tmr.. dicky going to msia on sat.. my close pals r all nt going to be by my side tis time when things reali get tough.. i needa wander ard... all alone tis time round.. he used to be someone so close to my heart... to get rid totally and turn him into a stranger... I CAN DO IT!!!! going to take a long long break... i need support.. i need support... hugs used to be there... but becoz of him, i turn them all down and nw their hugs belongs to others...

on 30Mar2009... his msg that i love "Baby, i really love u.. wanna be with u.. play bowling with u every wkend.. spend time with u.. hug u every moment u need mi and walk with u tis lifetime".. our "lifetime" ended in 2yrs 4mths 16days... i am smiling... tearing... i will miss u... do take care... but from tis moment onwards.. we are totally stranger...

i AM SO TIRED... SO TIRED THAT I WANA CLOSe MY EyES AND SLeeP BUt NEvEr wAkE Up...

My dear lady girl is back in SG!!! Happy!! And once i reach SG ytrday after a trip with colleagues... i called her but she was watching movie therefore she called me back later in the night when i was preparing to sleep... she was complaining to me about what has happened on her celebration and cried in the midst of talking to me... my poor girl... sorry for not being there... *hugs* Wonder why some people just have nothing better to do and poke their noses in others' affair... dun u have something better to do.. and hey there, stop talking bad about my poor lady la.. she alrdy went there and having to cope on herself isnt easy.. instead of giving encouragement... u guys gossip gossip and gossip!!! Getting super extremely pissed... my heart and mummy's heart ache badly when she cried on the phone when talking to me.. sigh... silly girl... jiayou... let them say whatever they wan... jiejie will support u de silly.. dun cry k... i was so blind to encourage that someone when she is depressed... two headed snake... scary!!!

Will be meeting up my lady girl real soon... hmm wonder if she will like the pressie i got for her.. hee... it is chosen by my man and myself... "designer taste" he call it.. hee.. ok i trust u... hope she like it!!! Gd luck to bibi for the design competition!!! Win alot alot wo... See bibi on fri... and see meimei on sat!!

IM BACK!!! Went for a 2D1N trip with eleven others and its a trip full of shopping... hehe... spend 100over dollars but manage to get things for everyone i love.. hehe.. that time went with bibi also never shop so much, coz got aisah as a shopping partner its different... girls are girls... heh.. sorry to make bibi worry.. i oso worry mah... never rec his reply when i websms him.. hehe.. some network prob.. sorry bibi.. shall upload photos after collating.. never really use my camera coz got two SLR camera taking photos all the way... hehe... contented with a filling A&W.... meeting bibi tmr... hmm... I MISS U!!! And happy birthday to my dearest xinyi, sorry for not being able to attend ur 21st... date crashed... sorry... muackx

Was suppose to meet him today in town at 1pm but when i reach newton mrt the bus stop at 1236hrs, i called him only to hear that he is still sleeping at home... i then alight the bus immediately and took a cab home... crying on the cab.. am i wrong? I woke up early in the morning to give him morning call at 11.15am cause if i call too late, he will blame me for not giving him ample time to prepare.. and from his character, i know he will go back to sleep so at 11.34am, i called again... he told me he is preparing and told me not to worry, he wont be late... so i went to prepare and dress nice nice and rush out... i became pissed and very upset... we had a very big fight yesterday due to some reason... and i gave him chance again... u guys must be thinking.. HEY SOFT HEARTED again... but i guess that's me.. useless huh...

Whenever we quarrel, he told me to cool down... i'll be leaving in a few hours... with tears in my eyes... and a broken heart...

*U told me u r willing to give up everything for me... only to lemme find out u r still sourcing out for schools... y do u lie when u dun mean it... im tired... i can only wish u all the best... and to tell u... be well when im not ard... and i never regret loving u... thou its full of tears... i will not forget the laughter and joy.. still the same old sentence.. we are from two worlds... we are not suited for each other..*

~ILOVEU!~ IWILLMISSU!