A blessing in disguise!

He has finally stopped! And I wana thank you for finally stopping to sms me... I knew it.. that he will never persist... coz he don't love me from the start... I persist that I am just a passerby to his life... for he is a materialistic man while im those who wanted a simple and contented life...

Have been close to this particular someone lately, and i seriously wana thank him for being with me for the past one month when all thing just sucks!!! Thanks K! People have been asking... and I would only say, "He is a policeman", and I will maintain my stand... he is just another policeman...

Thanks for the night drive, letting me cry, letting me grumble, letting me nag and letting me feel comfortable... I appreciate all that you have done... even if it is just a "Mei Li De Wu Hui"... I am glad to have you around... and thanks for wanting me to think carefully, I will... because I dun wan to treat you as a float as well... for u r too nice a person...

And my dearest xinyi is back... I wana meet u up real soon!!! I MISS U!!!!

On 20Oct2009, Juliet had our 2nd sports day at Jurong JC.... and we the BPians... managed to clinch the champions again... ops... shld be taking the humble pie instead... and I had few times of roller coaster ride when someone is so fickle minded that she keep want run, dun wan run... and im totally pissed until my dearest OO Aileen is so nice to want to gve up her role for me to compete in... so sweet of her!!!

Her(Runner) scandal claimed that she is faster then me... and ask mi to think at the big picture... WTF!!!!! I am quite sure I am faster... but i kept quiet because they feel that "fat fat canot run"... and i had the last laugh when she came in last for the 100m dash... hahahaha... *evil*

And someone else injured therefore I upgrade from a reserve to a thrid runner of the 4x1oom race partnering Mdm Aileen, Aisah Bacin and lastly clarissa for it... and after running... the person says, "i regret for not putting u in the 100m dash... *roll eyes*... too late... even my CO told me, "I am shocked by ur running speed"... ahaha... and everyone was like running to me and telling me congrats when someone watch in jealousy and saying stuffs like "if not for me, u also cant run and im so proud of u for standing in"... what the fuck... she sounds so sarcastic and im pissed!!!! U SO GD.. run urself la... hmm...

And I reali *hugs* sisi for encouraging me and telling me dun care them... heheeh... We got 2nd in the race... woohoo.... wana comment of fatty cant run... think twice... hehehe

我想他... 真地好想他...

Are you doing well? Its already a habit for me to be concern for him... wondering how have you been? I dun deny i miss you... havent see you for some time le... how are you?

Silly isnt it... when people dun care anymore... why are you still holding on?

Someone close is drifting apart... drifting away until I am unable to reach out and hold on...

So tired.. mentally and physically...

I need a break... a break to go out and take a long walk alone...

When someone you loves no longer am so important to you... what is going to happen next? I used to love so much... but now the heart seems numb...

I feel helpless... lost... depressed...

I dont want things to turn out like that... But U make my heart turn cold and dead!

I LOVE TO SPEND TIME WITH YOU!!! THANK YOU FOR MAKING MY DAY!!!!!