My Story... Within the boundary.. Yvonne...

2010-12-15T19:21:00.002+08:00

Fine.. i am lazy to maintain my post.. but shall let the photos do the job..

Ubin visiting with the SFC...

Kelong trip, again.. with Team C and mates..

Sammi's concert with LuLu... *LOVES*

Something misc.. i hate to be stood up...

2010-09-21T23:54:00.004+08:00

IMISSU! I MISSU! IMISSU! IMISSU! I MISSU! IMISSU! IMISSU! I MISSU! IMISSU! IMISSU! I MISSU! IMISSU! IMISSU! I MISSU! IMISSU! IMISSU! I MISSU! IMISSU!

话不必多说... 看照片吧...

2010-08-20T22:43:00.004+08:00

可爱的家人们!!

我的宝贝

害羞屁啦!

我是百事代言人

我们一起帮电话穿衣..... 有美哦?

很吊哦

好深的酒窝... 我爱!

疯婆子敏敏和我

AhLynn和我

最近都和这几个疯婆在一起... 呵呵!!!!!

2010-08-04T12:46:00.002+08:00

13years of friendship ending because of one small incident>????? Perhaps!

I gave in~~ I dun deny it might have been my fault in the first place coz 罗太们 says she die die want me to be there because i stand an important role in her life... fine.. alright... but it has already happened... why do she actually still brood over it.. cant we settle it like adults.. whats the point crying over spill milk?!

LuLu told me to take the initiative to speak.. Look, i did, but she ignored! Fine! 你要小气, 我也没办法.... 我已经让步了....

期待07082010罗太篮球赛
期待11082010和ITE mates聚会

加油! 我的A不容易得来.... 谢谢老板, 我不会让你失望!

2010-07-22T23:06:00.003+08:00

羅家老公
我两个最好的朋友

我有一个understanding的妈妈... 她体谅我追猪, 就算早出晚归也没有一声.....

我有一群好玩的同事, 对于我追星,虽然老是骂我.... 但总会让我安心的拿假追猪...

可是, 我也因为追猪, 失去了我两个最好的朋友.....

我好想念她们两个, 希望你们过的还好...

阿猪, 我也好想你......

罗宝贝的来临 (10/07/2010 - 11/07/2010)

2010-07-12T23:23:00.004+08:00

唯有他清楚
笑,因为我们太累了

把我带进罗家的宝贝

献给罗老板

$ S$1300/-

笑的很开心

搞怪猪

舞王

害羞的笑

又顽皮

好玩三人组

两个不够睡的老婆

送机

他走了

大合照

2010-07-02T19:30:00.001+08:00

I havent been feeling so stress for such a long period of time...

I am tired...

I feel like resigning....

I feel like taking a long long break and just travel around the world without any burdens....

Should i???

追豬記

2010-05-27T23:52:00.007+08:00

A hug so sweet initiated by him...

The first photo that he requested to take normally

The warm held...

Noti PIG... smiling while dancing...

Hubby is tired~~~

This is how close am I to the stage

SFC Private Event at Swissotel

Forever!

Visiting Thailand?

Super HIGH even before it started...

New FRIENDS! SockLeng not counted... heheh!

Concert buddy.. Jessie (Neo's wifey)

He hold my hand automatically.. I was stunned!

Yes and the hug come unexpected as well.. ahaha!

HAPPY!!!

From left.. Von, Ashlynn, Lynn!

追豬記buddies!

Thanks to new friend who took this~~~

Dinner with "豬" Long Beach King (Kallang) Celebration for the Success of Concert!

Random photos of my Aussie trip 22-28Apr2010

2010-05-11T19:40:00.005+08:00

The crazy BUNCH!

Visiting MovieWorld Gold Coast

My ever lovely bestie

Paradise Country Food "Court"

In the airport waiting for flight back to SG

Candle on the man's skull??

They force me! eheh

NicE?

My travelmates...

Hotel we are residing at

It definately is a FUN trip and full of shopping!!! HongKong and Taiwan next ladies!!!

An entry of PHOTOS!!!

2010-04-12T13:18:00.005+08:00

Being Random

Mei & Me

Lu and Me

Happy Birthday Lornie... who is not there???

Besties!!

Another random! hahah!

Anything in common??? Both round face!!! hehe!

Bar hop!

2010-04-05T21:20:00.003+08:00

Meet up with Bestie on 3Apr2010

Bday cake by Besties

Love them

3apr2010

Thank u besties!

Ytrday night was a "bad" night with all his sms-es bombarding... im kind of irritated and freaked out.. why after i told u it wont work out, u still keep persisiting?? sigh!! U are the one who hurt me in the first place... what's the point of wanting to salvaging everything after i have decided that we should just stay as friends??? Yes awkwardness arise when we see each other, so? Dun force me to transfer please... sigh!

I am surounded by a bunch of besties and friends are really more important to me.. they are the ones who stood by me all the way despite faulting them and quarrels... so, u cant blame me for always meeting them and not u.. somemore we r not even tgt yet and u r giving me a curfew, WTF!!!

2010-03-29T22:55:00.007+08:00

First person to wish me, Cruz Teng (Duno who is he, YES 93.3 DJ)

ALso, had a great bday celebrations with my pals the last one week.. thks all!!! Especially Cruz, thks for wishing me HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! hehee... a public character.. the first.. thks!

Just reach home after a good dinner with WeiLoong(Seth) and fetching mum from work... had stayed home to do some household chores and packing of room(thou it is still messy) but at least im able to locate my stuffs more easily... haha...

Seth shared with me about his salvation and i somehow got abit of "huh?? whats that??" at first but its real nice catching up with a friend, an old flame.. haha... to the benefit of whoever that duno, ok he is my 2nd boyfriend in sec sch... and we dated during sec 3 for nine fateful months with the jealousy kicks off in me and i decided to call the relationship off... he is a high profile person in school and manay grisl go gaga over him.. well he is quite handsome and an athlete that explains why... hahaha... I was quite high profile then because of NPCC and participating in quite alot of plays and singing... was talking about school and our old dating ground Jurong Entertainment.. got to know from him that place is now demolished... oh the memories... hehe.. and he can actually mentioned that he used to cut the chicken to little pieces for me at "Long John Silvers"... hahah.... nice catching up session... thks seth...

I always told Mei and Lu that if I have one person that I regret breaking up with, Its seth... haha.. lucky he didnt read my blog... ops... hmm he is really a nice and caring boyfriend then.. at the age of 15 when we dated.. thou u have ignored me for two LONG years after we broke up.. i am glad to have u still by my side, as a friend after ten over yrs..

*I want to read the "love letters" that u have kept for ten years!!!" hehehe!

2010-03-09T21:59:00.003+08:00

Once again! IDOL!!!

J Div Volleyball

Angels reunite!

BPians rowers

My girl and me

Ladies rowers

Totally fun filled week with all the sports event but im burnt on the skin and peeling badly now...

2010-02-24T13:20:00.005+08:00

Cam-whoring at work

D&D with Aisah and SiSi

Effects of DB... redness on skin!!! Ouch!!

Cuzzie 21st bday!

Catching up with my first boyfriend (SinSiang) hahaha

Busy with so much so much things that I seriously have no time to sit down and blog a good story...

First and 2nd week of Feb : Busy with D&D, CNY... vsiting and gathering does a part too...

3rd and present Feb : Dragonboat, and more gathering with JVS ppl...

I have changed... someone brought me into the player field and im very guilty to YD!! Karma? Maybe... aint going to bother that much anymore...

Fall out with L6... treasuring the gang even more... i dun look forward to sept coz mei is going US!!! But im looking forward to her ROM in July.. gong xi my girl!!!

Body totally burnt from the DB training ytrday... OUCH!!!

Nevertheless, I am still loving my life so far!!!

More overseas trip coming!! Woohoo!!!

26-27th Feb = Batam, again, with mates

Late Apr Aussie with mates

11/12June departing to New Zealand with Cruz

Woohoo... Love my life!!!

2010-02-02T00:37:00.004+08:00

With IDOL!!!! In uniform!

I LOVE MY LIFE!!!

I LOVE C.T!

I LOVE MY FRIENDS!

I LOVE MY JOB!

2010-01-27T22:21:00.002+08:00

I am back from THAILAND!!! And i am missing there liao... can spend money like nobody business and i LOVE to spend time with my ladies!!! Thank you Kel for sending me to airport at 4.30am in the morning and fetching me when I returned at 1am... *hugs*

Was not feeling well the day before the trip and Kel accompanied me for the whole night... actually wana go Lu's house to stay but as I am feeling real unwell, I stayed home... and Kel came over to accompany me! Thank you!

The 5D4N trip is a fruitful one! I love spending time with my gang! Thanks for making the trip a fun one!

On the returned day, Kel fetches me from the airport and make him waited for an hour... but not too bad compared to Lu's parents who waited three hours due to Lu's blurness... hehe cute! After that came back to my place and he waited for me to unpack my stuffs before we head out for supper... ok makan again, my ladies gonna scold me again!! hahaha... and make FUN!!! basket!! hehe... and he came up to my house and stayed here till 7am in the morning, I AM SO FREAKING TIRED!!! And finally when he left, i sleep from 7am to 5pm... hahaha.... PIG!!!

I am so missing my gang now!!!

2010-01-19T17:17:00.002+08:00

Yawnx... Just woke up from my beautiful sleep with three of big kid missed calls... was suppose to meet him at 3pm but i overslept and he went to NPC to wait while i carry on sleeping... hehe.. i am so bad...

Had a surprise from him this morning when he came over and fetch me after my night shift... he was having a fever last night but make the effort to come to NPC early in the morning at 7plus... silly but im so touched... hehe... Was in team office and he msg me asking if im still in office.. when i replied and asked why is he here, he told me to fetch me for brkfast... *HUGS* and so, after breakfast immediately, he send me home.. silly right.. faint! But I like!! hehe..

Now waiting for him to come and fetch me and we are going for dinner, then prawning and then to his place again to tidy some stuffs... and big kig offer to send and fetch me from airport when i go and return from thailand... hmm.. very nice... but we shall see, maybe come back time let him fetch, because going time i wana be with my friends, canot abandon them... hehe...

Four more days to THAILAND!!!! But four more days to not seeing Kel everyday!!! hahahaha o=contradicting!!!

2010-01-14T12:37:00.003+08:00

Yvonne is going to have a good sleep now!!!

Slept for less then 5 hours in three full days!!

And yes, time is given to work and Kel!!!

Just reached home from family day meeting... spend the whole night at Kel's place! We slept at 5am and woke up at 8am... and he woke me up... in the past, it used to be me waking the previous up... haha... but this time, I am the one who is lazy to wake up!

And I have made up my mind, to have chosen one over three...

Going to have a good sleep now... no more brain cracking!!! I need to rest!!! And seeing Kel later again!!!! Geez!!!

2010-01-12T17:34:00.004+08:00

The SEM award

Just reached home from a fun day of inservice at DHQ... and im glad the big kid is feeling well le... First time in my four years, I got the service excellence award.. haha... too bad big kid is not around when I receive this award... as he has went back to NPC to sleep after a long night shift and a full three hours of panel!!!

Couldn't really focus during the inservice as I am busy smsing big kid trying to keep him calm and steady while he attend the first morning panel chaired by HI (head investigation)... haha... and after half a day, while we are being dismissed for lunch... I am in the queue for food and realise someone was playing hide and seek behind me... and there I turned, Big kid standing behind me... when I thought he has alrdy return to NPC to sleep.... Noti boy!! and there Amran is, smiling with the evil-ness on his face... lucky he never disturb us!!

After lunch, we went for some ops quiz while big kid went back to nPc... and he told me to wake him up as he was sleeping in the restroom... and so, i thought i am going to be dismiss at 2plus.. i told him to just rest... but, I was wrong... we were held back until 4plus... and I am like super gan chiong as i tot he needa fetch benben at 4pm... so asked adeline to wake him up... and when i reached NPC at 5pm... he is still sleeping... shocked!!! so i wake him up, and he told me he waited... silly isnt it!!! and subsequently sent me home while he went over to fetch benben go back washup first and we are heading for dinner later... feeling sleepy thou... but i will wait... because he has waited for me for even longer time...

Yawns.... PAYDAY!!!!!

2010-01-11T21:15:00.002+08:00

Just received sms from Kel telling me he is not feeling well... I am worried, very worried... all my fault.. yesterday i was unwell and he accompany for the whole night and he didnt sleep until morning... silly man, now fall sick! Haiz.....

Its a bliss to have someone taking care of you while u are not feeling well... to have someone making sure U sleep and he is still keeping vigil and whenever u wake up he ask u to go back to sleep and putting his hand on ur head to see if u r fine... thks big kid!

Big kid, u must be well k... dun make me worry...

And was pondering if i should go for tmr inservice as I am still feeling wobbly... but tmr im getting an award lehx... hope im fine tmr...

2010-01-08T13:17:00.002+08:00

Yet another day of "something's cooking up"...

And another guy intruding into my life...

All I need is time...

Time to get over it...

And U are allowed to come in!

Three, I can only choose one....

Many choices, but I can only have one...

One that I can trust and believe... To walk down the aisle in three years time!

Three, a number i need to deduct two from!!! Without hurting anyone, without losing anyone as friends after that! Teach me, what to do next!

2010-01-07T17:12:00.002+08:00

Damn! Jialat! I have another man who is trying to enter my life! HOW?!!!!

2010-01-04T16:39:00.004+08:00

Counting down! 18more days to THAILAND!!! Woohoo!!!

Counting down! 12more days to my short straight hair!

Counting down! 8more days to payday!

Counting down! 2more days to seeing my ladies!

Counting down! One more hour to dinner with Big Kid!

2010-01-02T01:03:00.003+08:00

The teacher and Me

She taught us 8years back (WOW)

Its the end of a new year day, and ive just reached home from a tiring but awesome date with my ladies... yupx my ladies that include Lornie and Edmund... leave was cancelled for a new but stupid policy, but it was a gd tour as we only have one "ah long" msg... nice partnering the lame farhan and having great bosses around... met up with people I havent meet for a long time.. and that include Mrs Kwok who just came back from Swiss... The last day of 2009 sucks.. because it is a special day to me, not to him anymore... but I dun hate anymore... at least we were once in love... aint easy for the whole day as I rejected Kelvin's outing last min as I wanted sometime of my own.. for the past two mths i didnt cry, but on 31st Dec 2009, I cried... and I make it a point it will be the last I will cry for him... yes the person I spend three years together... although it didnt work out, but ive grown and learnt alot from this... and I have decided to make the relationship between us, END! Met Sisi and Dawn at night of the eve for dinner and then shouted happy new year with Sisi... nice having nice frds around... on the way to meet dawn, kel called to ask me out, but i just wana spend time with frds, first...

My new year resolution
- Complete the standard chartered full marathon 42km in 2010
- Dun put my ladies plane at all (ok, not realistic, maybe less then five times the whole year!)
- Get my diploma
- 5more KGs for Aimei sake (U know why!)
- 10km run by June 2010
- Love mummy more
- Get it over and done with and live life the fullest!

I am Happy because I am REBORN!!!

2009-12-27T07:49:00.003+08:00

The famous glutinous rice big kid reccommend

The stall @ Chinatown

Yupx... i just reached home from a long night out with him! Say dun wan to meet but we still meet up when he told me to go out for a night drive and, supper of course! Aimei so gonna kill me!!! hehe... i know u r reading... but hehe... nvm coz i knw no matter wat, u still love me!!! Right lady???

He fetched me at 12plus and we went to have Tong Shui at UBT, after that, he took me for a long night ride to changi and pasir ris before we headed to pray at Loyang again... i love sitting inside his yaris with the romantic love song playing in the backgrd while the windows are down and the night breeze is blowing... everything seems perfect... Thanks Big kid... his new nickname... coz when he is playing PSP, he acted like a big kid... and im so amused by it!

After night ride from west to east... we headed to have glutinous rice at chinatown... waited there from 5am to 6.30am then eat lor... and we da bao one for mummy... she sure love it! After that, he make the effort to drive me to mummy workplace to drop the brkfast and we head back and here I am, blogging beofre hitting the sack... im so appreciating u! Thanks Big Kid!

*Girls, there are progress today... update u guys soon!* *GRINS*

2009-12-26T23:40:00.002+08:00

Aimei took this when they are following us... Kel's car!

Ok, Kel(with his new ah beng hairstyle) and myself.. happy, u bet!!!

My buds!!! XMAS DAY!!!

Yupx, Kel didnt join coz he was working morning shift before he join us at night!

Lulu and myself... Kel brought them here too... DIMSUM at 126!

Spend my xmas with my buds (Lornie, Edmund, Aimei, Lulu) during the first half of the day as Kel needs to work as he cant take leave last min... we went to Clementi Kbox and sang our hearts out until we r all like, tired... and after that, went to Batok "818" and eat a nice fish soup steamboat before heading over to JP and watch "Alvin and the Chipmunks2"... while waiting for Kel, went over to Singtel to port the line as I do not wish to have a new line... and yupx... im super being "psycho" by Lornie Tan!!! haaa... and when Kel arrived... we caught the chipmunks before heading to geylang to have the ladies long awaited dimsum... im so glad that my ladies dun dislike Kel... hehe... and yupx... i took his car while the ladies went there in Ed's car... after dimsum, we headed over for dou hua at the "豆桨 da wang" and after everything at about 2am... he send mi home after parting from my ladies...

And this morning he was like woke up damn super early at 9plus and he sms mi to go out when he buy his car assessories... and i woke up at 12plus seeing the msg... gosh he is not out yet and he came over to fetch me at 1plus... and we kena caught by a "passing by" police car again, serene and gopi.... hope they dun big mouth!!! we went to shop for his car assessories and later... to lavendar "zhu char soup" again... its nice to drink the hot soup in a cold weather... after that... he drove me back at 4plus while he went over to his sister's house... initially intend to meet to go pray and then to dinner... but i got something to see too... and stood him up last min... and he never read the msg until he at my void-deck... silly man... sorry... meet ya other day k... we have been meeting everyday!!!

2009-12-25T02:40:00.004+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!!!!!

Just reached home from outing with Kel... he brought me to have zhu cha soup with rice for dinner at Beatty Lane and we proceeded over to his shifu shop and stayed there for a moment... gosh im like super shy la.. and the shifu was like asking me if i got anything want his help, checking if i wana calculate my yin yuan with Kel!!! Make me blush like nobody business!!! hehe... after that, we went to UBT tong shui to have something light and stayed there for awhile before heading back to his dad's house to grab his uniform then back to Panj!! It is like so late liao and he still dun want go back rest... must nag at him den he finally agreed to go back rest... gotta work morning shift u knw... silly! and thank him for companying me on this special countdown... silly man is working morning shift and he makes the effort to company me till 2am then go back npc to sleep... thks... and we gotta meetup like in less then 18hrs as we are going on a triple date!! Aimei, Edmund, Lornie, Lulu, Kel and myself... Catching Alvin and chipmunks 2... woohooo!!! So looking forward... hehe... going to sleep le.. gdnite people...

I am missing YOU already even we just parted for less then 30mins!!! I met ur impt frd today and u are going to meet my impt frds the 2nd time in less then 18hrs... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2009-12-22T15:47:00.002+08:00

Just woke up from a gd long sleep... worked half day ytrday and after that went out with Kel to eat at UBT then went over to West Coast to chill until 7am den reach home and sleep... Its his morning shift ytrday and its very nice of him to company me thou he is tired... thks Kel...

Was covering desk till (by right) 10pm but due to complainants coming in non stop, i was held up till 11plus.. and that silly man was like waiting and waiting in the team office until i finally handed over to Firdaus and went up seeing him so tired and still in uniform.. and as there are some others inside the office, i gotta sms him even thou we are just two tables apart.. haha... underground affair... and only then, after i told him to go rest first as i will only be done at 12plus, he went up to sleep in restroom... and when im done at about 0036hrs, i went up to restroom wanting to wake him up, i just cant bear to do so as he just look so tired.. but he heard my footstep and woke up... sillyman, so tired still bother to go makan and bring me to west coast... im really touched, thks... its romantic to spend time with him, enjoying the wee hrs breeze at west coast when he suddenly walk away and get jacket for me in his car... *hugs* and i can see that his eyes are tired but he insist on spending time until im really tired... and subsequently drive me back home at 7am!!!

When we are eating at UBT, he put the sauce on my rice... and yupx, i tot of the previous again... he used to do that.. but it will be overcome soon... bt by bit.. day by day, im growing stronger... oh ya, and gera actually sms me ytrday telling me about the previous... he has turned to such a monster... he don used to be like that... hearing what he threatened gera is so scary... just what has happened to u... sigh... Please be well...

Tidying my room now and gotta meet my ladies for xmas gifts shopping at vivo later... woohoo... alrdy settled BenBen and Kel's pressie... Aimei, tell me what u wan!!!!!!!

2009-12-20T21:01:00.003+08:00

On this fateful day three years back, i got to know this guy... we spoke on the phone from 10pm till 6am the next morning... and his sister was like making fun in the background.. yes its him, someone i dated for three years... someone i am unable to forget(still)... happy? Its on the surface, got over with it? maybe i am letting go bit by bit... but i dun deny, i miss the man who came and stayed in my life for three years... i miss him...

People asked what xmas gift i wan...

- I wish my smile will come from the heart
- i wish my loneliness will be gone even if i am not meeting my pals
- I wish to be able to stand up strong
- I wish to not tink of him everywhere i go
- I wish for him to be happy
- I wish for me to be happy
- I wish for him to sms me, I miss u baby... stupid i know... sorry *grins*
- I wish to, see him again...

I hope I will be able to survive 25th Dec and 31st Dec... I MUST BE STRONG!!!

GOODBYE by Miley Cyrus

I can honestly say
You've been on my mind
Since I woke up today, up today
I look at your photograph all the time
These memories come back to life
And I don't mind
I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember those simple things
I remember 'till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forge, tis goodbye
I woke up this morning
And played our song
And through my tears I sang along
I picked up the phone and then
Put it down, Cause I know I'm wasting my time
And I don't mind
I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember those simple things
I remember 'till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forget
Suddenly my cell phone's blowing up
With your ring tone
I hesitate but answer it anyway
You sound so alone
And I'm surprised to hear you say
You remember when we kissed, you still feel it on your lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
You remember those simple things
We talked 'till we cried
You said that your biggest regret
The one thing you wish I'd forget, saying goodbye
Saying goodbye... Oh, Goodbye

2009-12-18T23:19:00.002+08:00

The cutie pie that make my day...

YUKI, being subdued by Kel

Cutie BenBen playing with me when Kel drives...

He loves to play! At Kel's house..

The Three "Babies" of my life (presently) Yuki, Kel, Benn

Had a fun day out with Kel and BenBen... the pictures shows it all... i do not have to say so much... i love spending time with the three babies of my life (presently)... thanks for companying me out all three! oh ya... went to mad jack for dinner and Joe Kok suddenly came over to approach us... one more person caught us... faint...

Went out with Kel last nite and we went over to pray at Loyang Pek Kong temple again and after that he drove me to upper thomson... we went to lower and upper pierce... and i tot of him... useless i knw... but gimme time... 3yrs can... hmm...

Meeting Kel tmr again... shall call him when im up... wonder if little cutie is joining us tmr...

2009-12-17T13:02:00.003+08:00

Committee members of J X-country

NYDP Mentors and NIE teacher trainees

Home! From Pulau Ubin! It was a tiring but fun event... cant bear with all the mentess that we have "taken care of" for the past one year... they are being labelled as the youth at risk by their school teachers... but from what i observed, they are just mischievious... especially my girls ShiLi, Jasmine and ShuMin... nice people... went for X-country as well and it was real tiring...

Slept at 8plus the first nite of the camp and the next morning I woke up at 6am... saw Kel msg, asking if I got kana rain anot... so nice and concern of him... hmm thks... fever on the first nite but feeling better after popping two panadols provided by Derrick gege... and Neo was also concern asking asking to check if im still running a fever the 2nd nite... I am surrounded by caring and nice people... thou i still miss HIM... sigh...

Counting down to one more month to THAILANd!!!

2009-12-15T04:19:00.002+08:00

Yawns... just reach home after dimsum treat with Kel again... I LOVE DIMSUM!!! And aso went to Mustafa for shopping with him, and ops... thomas caught us... and was like "Why are u both together at this late hour"... faint!!! And I was damn paiseh.. keeping quiet and let Kel do the talking... become xiao nu ren sia... oh NO!!!

Slept thru the day and only woke up when Kel msg me suddenly at 6pm... and lucky he woke me up by his sms, if not i would have been late for the date with my ladies... and his ring fits so nicely on my finger... ops... sssshhhhh.....

New moon is nice... i love the hunks inside... hehe... dreaming!!! Its the camp in few hours time... and here I am blogging... yawns... going to pack some stuffs and sleep... see u on wed Kel...

2009-12-14T13:11:00.002+08:00

I AM HOME!!! From a long night at npc and then to dhq for WHT... and yupx, I met Kel again ytrday afternoon before heading to night shift to have a late brunch as we both woke up at about 4pm.. havent wrk night shift for sometime liao and its really taxing... yawns... but Kel's hard-disc accompany me for the long night while I watch videos and movies...

Silly Aisah stayed in npc till 6am then went home to sleep and we had a long gd chat in her office.. simply love my ladygirl.. Kel was thinking of going out for some shopping today but I guess I am giving it a miss... at night meeting my ladies for new moon... woohoo...

Tmr is the NYDP camp.. yeah yeah, its been a long time since i last went camping... and wont be seeing Kel for this few days, unless he really wana come on wed which i told him better not coz not very gd for kids to be there as he will bring benben along.. lets celebrate benben bday when my camp ended, this few days, stay hOME!!! hahah..

Looking forward to my trip with the ladies 22-26Jan!!! SHOP SHOP SHOP!!! Bangkok we are coming!!!

2009-12-13T04:49:00.002+08:00

Its a tiring day at work... engaged non stop from takeover until 7plus when handing over still got complainant... "Pai tan"!

Just reached home from outing with my ladies and then Kelvin... After work, met my ladies for a short supper session at UBT for noodles(but I didnt eat except the sotong balls) and then met Kelvin and we went to Adam Rd for the prawn noodles, but I only had the soup and three big prawns... nice de wor.. Kelvin is really a glutton... he knows where to go always for good food... after that we went to loyang to pray again while we talk under the moon for an hour or so when he sees that my eyes r tired and we head back to his place... as i am driving this time round, i drive him back (the 2nd time out of countless time of outing)... went up to his place and played with his maltese "Yuki" for awhile, chitchat and then head back... and here I am, typing this blog... thks for always being there whenever I feel down... U r really appreciated!

He mention meeting up in the afternoon later... let's see if i can wake up on time... yawns... and he wanted to bring me out for shopping on monday when benben at child care... see how ba... coz i need some rest before meeting my ladies at nite for NEW MOON!!! woohoo...

*Why am I so happy?"

2009-12-11T19:36:00.006+08:00

His Cutie Little Maltese

Woke up early in the morning at 9am and saw one unread msg shown on my mobile phone... the first thought of it is ray as he is always the first who msg me daily for the past three years.. but i remind myself that, no cant be him.. you are no longer inside his heart, he msg u for wat... sigh.. and eagerly i go, opening msg, and the name pop out, BP KELVIN YUEN! Well well well, and he was thinking of me middle of the night... *faint* just what are you doing at 2.45am in the morning and not sleeping, tot u were so tired when u fetch me ytrday... hmm... and just duno why at this moment a song title came into my mind "Dang Ni Gu Dan Ni Hui Xiang Qi Shui"... and he is tinking of me... murahhahaha...

A smile shine on my face when I saw his name... weird but true..

In the afternoon, another msg came and pop... its him again.. and just woke up, why are u telling me ur movements.. hahaha.. and well, i told him my movement as well.. I told him I am going running in the evening and he told me he is staying at home.. and so, the msging stopped... but when I reach NPC at 5pm, I saw him inside the team office.. and he was like "Surprise!"... silly man.. and once again, the smile shine on my face...

The two times(Countable in three years) that Ray gave me surprise is on our first mth anni, he bought a ring and came over to my place.. when he told me he needs to work.. that's very sweet... sigh.. and the other time, before I went for incamp training, he bought cookies, titbits and sweets for me... a surprise visit in the late night... imissu! Hope u doing fine... I am doing well so no worries... as the Iphone is not going to end up in his hands.. i will use it!!!

I AM SO INTO THE WHITE 16GB iphone..

Alright, gotta go now.. fetching Aimei's mummy and heading down to airport for their flea market!! SUPPORT!!!! While kelvin dine alone tonight... poor thing... but canot meet everyday, if not we will grow sick and tired.. hahaha.. *Be careful when u drive up to JB tonight, i gotta be with my ladies!*

2009-12-10T23:51:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LADYGIRL CHAN YUEN LU!!!!

Hope you like the surprise that we have given you!! Hee...

Recce in the afternoon, sleep is not enough and my body is aching from the run yesterday.. Had a long night ytrday and he is there in NPC to cheer me up, being sensitive is him and while I am in deep thoughts standing outside thinking of the conversation i used to have with Ray, he came out, and ask if I am fine... "You are always so sensitive, thank you!" After that, I went up to the male locker room and saw this silly man sleeping on the sofa.. "u could have just went home and sleep!"

Also thanks Kelvin for ferrying me here and there today... Appreciate it! After fetching me, he brought me to have some nice food, yes food again at Bt Merah, followed by some time together at Kent ridge park... he is a nice and romantic guy... My ladies, u guys can rest assured...

Gave Lu a surprise at her house just now, and we were talking about how to spend our xmas party, and Mei is telling me to bring Kelvin along... hmm, shall see how... hahaha...

Going to sleep le.. tmr got meeting at 10am and after that going to SUPPORT mei n lu at their flea market... jiayou gers... Thanks LuLu for the bag, ILOVEIT!!!

2009-12-09T13:00:00.004+08:00

YVONNE'S BACK! YES I AM BACK!

I oo the phone which is suppose to be dead, so dead for the past one week and I saw all his missed calls... thanks for concerning... so tempted to call him back, but i control... he is having his own life now, and I am picking myself up.. NO!!!!!

I promise I will be fine... taking my time to slowly enjoy my life and let go now.. short trip here and there really does help.. crying does release stress.. eating good food around Singapore and Msia with Kelvin also makes me feel like there is so much more in life to enjoy.. i will be fine. I am stronger.. I PROMISE!

I have decided to release him, no point hating him, it only make my life more miserable... tears are dry, heart is broken but mending slowly, places we have been to, memories we have with each other, is just part and parcel of my lfe.. I have decided to live life fullest... I will be fine.. As long as I keep telling myself this... it will soon be over... Like he said, there will be rainbow after the rain.. thanks ray.. for everything.. tears of joy and tears of sadness.. I appreciate everything... I am letting the hatred dissolves... seeing that he is happier now, its enough.. i give u my blessings.. and you dun have to worry about me anymore, i will be happy.. this i promise you.. take gd care of yourself..

Its better to have love and lost, then never to have love at all... I still miss our times together, but I am standing up..

Attempted suicide, insomnia, became crazy... they say, part and parcel of life... at least we were together before...

Treasuring everyone around me.. thanks everyone around me giving me support... thou pissed with what Vincent has done, but I know he has my interest in heart... but please, dun do such stuffs anymore... everything has come to light when saw that familiar number accidentally on his mobile when he was showing me the forwarded msg that Chris received... I didnt want him to be guilty, I am leading a better life... no point... I once hate him, but I am fine now... really am good... so everyone around me, dun do silly things anymore...

Going for some vegetarian food with Kelvin later, waiting for him to fetch me now, my body is aching from the run this morning.. i wan to sleep... YOU ARE SO LATE!!! *wait wait wait*

2009-11-30T17:53:00.004+08:00

Penning this down with the heaviest heart...

Penning this down with all the "cant bear" in my mind...

I just wana pen down the last before it all ended...

I miss him... badly and everyone close to me knows it... I thought i will be able to let go, but i was wrong, when he plead, when he says "Baby, i really love you", i surrender... and I am now telling myself i wont surrender anymore... I am a weakling, and I am not a strong person when people thought that I am one... he told me the reason why he chosen her...

He says i am agressive, while she is the xiao nu ren...

He says whenever we go out, he feels fear but while with her, he feels like protecting her...

He says reason that he wanted me to stay because he "bu she de", not because his heart still belongs to me... basically, i am sharing...

But he said, he only likes her, but he loves me...

Because of you love me, Ive decided to leave... to somewhere far from u!

I didnt know I am such a lousy gf... that after doing everything, I still cant be compared to someone who he just know for less then a year... in the past, I gave him all the chances and time that he need... even after he flirt and sleep around with different people, he told me the one who he realise treat him the best is me, i still let him have the chance.. because I believe, I believe that one day, he will be good.. only to realise, i am deceiving myself...

I dun deny im very possessive, i tied him down... for the fear that if i dun control, i will lose him... but it all backfire... the problem between us is trust! I love him, but i dun trust him at all..

May the new girl in ur life love u more and trust u... but one thing u shall never do anymore, that is to flirt, no girls will be like me to wait and give so many chances... treasure people around u and not take anyone for granted...

I have decided to let go totally and leave! When u miss me, call out "Baby, i need u!" and I will give u strength... Jiayou my babi, my dearie bear...

Remember our song - WOULD YOU BE THERE

Remember our rayson

Remember our date - 31Dec2006

Remember my smile

Remember me! Keep me close to ur heart! Thank you for teaching me how to love and sacrifice selflessly for the past three years...

2009-11-29T14:21:00.002+08:00

Why is it so hard just to stay faithful?

Why is it so hard just to not lie?

Why is it so hard just to keep one person by your side and love her wholeheartedly?

Just my thoughts when I ponder into my three years "failed" relationship.....

Went to catch 2012 with Mei, Lu and Edmund and it was awesome.. its kinda scary that the world is coming to an end and how much can one be cruel thinking for himself/herself just to survve... I thought of him, yes him that will he be like the rich man, at the verge of death, the one he thought of is me even thou he has so many other women??? *sigh* Its nice catching up with pals and knowing that no matter what, they will held on tight to u and not let u dwell alone.. thks to Mei and Lu, when they will say, what are friends for?! heh...

Met up with Nurjiah and we have a long chat while enjoying our usual pizza hut... its nice to catch up... i miss all my friends...

Miss bowling, looking forward to the next bowling session with Mutalib, Aisah, William, Firdaus, WeiZhi, Quek and maybe Kelvin, if he will come...

Having family gathering to celebrate daddy belated bday... woohoo, it will be fun coz the LEEs will be wearing same tee... it sure look fun... and er gu are thinking of getting the same tee for the junior LEEs as well... hahah.. photos to be up the next post...

2009-11-25T01:03:00.002+08:00

Just reached home after outing with Mei and Lu... Thanks them for being there.. wanted to cry but they prevent me from crying but making me laugh.. but end of the day, i still cried when otw back.. feel like hearing his voice.. so much.. even just awhile.. but didnt... I miss him, badly, still!

I really am lousy.. i know.. but im trying my best to get out from these.. gimme some time...

*swollen eyes*

2009-11-24T11:28:00.007+08:00

Disappointed coz K cancelled the outing tonite as he got something on! But guess its ok coz even if go tonite, he is having course tmr and it will be tiring for him!

Don't know what is the reason, I sobbed ytrday! Badly that I needed someone by my side! I felt loss! Neglected! Abandoned! Why a three years relationship can just end like that! He is mine for three years, how come he suddenly because hers... And he can find someone and be with her so easily without even thinking for my feelings! I make a gift, I planned the day! But it will never be fulfil! I feel sad! Alot of you will say i am silly, but I aint no feeling, it is a three years relationship!!! He told me if i go back to him, he will get rid of her... i wanted to... so much... but when i told him so, he state he needed time... how about me? isit fair?

And I ponder, if going out with K will be unfair for him coz it might really be a rebound relationship! And they(people who know both me and K) told me to think carefully, he is hurt once, dun make him disappointed another time, it will be unfair for him if he is just a replacement..

I miss him! Yes I do! And everytime when I thought of the photo they took, my eyes are filled with tears, I CANT CONTROL!!!

I am hurt! I am in PAIN! I am defeated! Totally! Why after I did so much, sacrifice so much, I still lost him...

I really miss U! I wan to cry! And K last min canot makes me feel so empty.. but i dare not tell him thru the phone or sms... dun wan him to come over for me if he reali am held up...

Sorry K!

2009-11-23T05:27:00.002+08:00

Dun really feel good when HE told me that HE truly loves me... coz if its love, why there is other girls time and time again! Love? A four letter word to you... despite me doing so much and sacrificing so much, I got all the pain! To myself! Gera is in a better position, at least HE broke up with her three mths later den date me, but we have just ended a three years rs, he went dating with that bitch few days later... LOVE!!! A joke!

Just reached home after a heart to heart chat with Baobei Adeline and earlier on met Muthu for awhile... thanks my friends for being around...u both are awesome!!! I am sure of what I want now more and I will be strong... I will move on...

Its a fun day of outing with the little cutie and K! Thanks for making my day! And the little cutie dun wan to part with me when im leaving... its like a family watching movie together... I heart the feeling! Forgot to bring camera if not sure take alot of photo... Astroboy is a touching movie... go watch it! I heart carrying little cutie and he rest on my shoulder... i heart chasing him around and tickling him... hehe... K says the next will be christmas carol... where this time round???

And its mon!!! I am looking forward to the drive up to Msia again with u on tues... This time where u wana bring me? I wana eat the mushroom u prepare!!! :) TUES FASTER COME!!! I wana sit beside u when u drive 140km/h! I HEARTS!!!!

2009-11-22T11:36:00.003+08:00

WOW!!! She calls me a bitch when she is the one herself! I have officially broken up with that bastard on 5Nov2009 when u both are together since 24Sept2009? The pot calling the kettle black??? She calls me the silly one when she is the one herself. Who's the pathetic one, your boyfriend smsing his ex girlfriend almost daily to say "I really loves you baby, i really want your reply and I miss you baby!"... Look whos talking? Oh if i am the neurotic one, perhaps he is the one who is neurotic! Happy now? Perhaps, we shall see! And your "claim" boyfriend told me that if i go back to him, he will get rid of u.. who is the pathetic one??? *BITCH*

It all just sucks!

Fucker! U are a FUCKER!!! *puke*

I heart dating a policeman! I heart the shyness and awkwardness when we see each other at work! I heart sitting inside his car while he drift and drive at 140km/h! I heart looking forward to night shift when he is working and seeing him with a smile! I heart it when he brings me out for night drive and makan session in JB! I heart him listening to my grumble and then make me laugh at the jokes he make! I heart him finishing the drink I prepared for him! I heart when he waited for me without complaining! I heart him when he is afraid im cold and he is persiring himself *Silly*! I heart him making sure that I dun go meet my friends when im empty stomach! CONCLUSION, I HEART HIM!!! Going for astroboy with him and little one at Vivo... hope little one will make me smile!

K is so much much better! Furthermore, U are the one who fault me from the beginning, and u have the face to go around telling people its my fault!

2009-11-21T23:59:00.004+08:00

Went shopping with Jiah for the whole day and spent a hundred bucks with just three hours... confirm kena nag by K!! IMISSU!!! Havent seen you for three days liao! IMISSU!!! Looking forward to our next trip over and also u bringing me for all the nice food...

He (Ray Zheng RuiXing) is a bastard lor... keep msging me every now and then telling me miss me, apologise, wan me reply etcetc, when he is alrdy having another woman... my day always am fine but once his msg came, it spoilt my day! It totally sucks! Please just leave me alone! You SUCKS!!!

Hope tmr meeting K and he can listen to me grumble again, dun treat me like that bastard does if not I will be very sad orh... but i believe u wont... *hugs*

2009-11-19T02:52:00.003+08:00

Little mischievious BenBen

Had a fun time with my mates and im simply more and more in love with the lil one... and for those who does not know who is he, his name is benben... SO CUTE!!! I asked if he remember me, and he replied... "I know you are that auntie who buy the cheese biscuit for me, and you drive a yellow car with winnie the pooh, i like u..."... goodness... he is so cute... that was like few weeks ago and he remember... and he stick with me when at npc just now almost everywhere i go... loves him tons.. hehe... so cute... and when he is leaving with, he hold my hands and dun wana let go... so adorable... im so in love with this little boy... hehe... looking forward to bringing him out!!! I wana get toys for him... first time see me like guai guai, today only 2nd time and he is so hyperactive... hope next time when we go out, bring him along and he will definately add to the fun!!!!! Gdnite peers... finally going to rest... went outing with K ytrday till 2am and i havent had a gd sleep... looking forward to our next outing... hehe

2009-11-17T14:19:00.002+08:00

I miss him.. and I dont deny that... told mummy just now that I somehow miss him even thou we have broken up, kena nag by her and she even wanted to confiscate my mobile phone.. cute and funny mummy... after all, we have been together for three years.. although there are times we quarrel badly, but he is a boyfriend who has been by my side for three years.. silly i know.. but cant help...

If K were to know, he will surely be disappointed.. and mummy was like asking me to go out with K more so i wont think of Ray.. ok i will... being with K makes me happy and he is just full of jokes.. having common topics make things even easier when we converse.. wish everything will turn out well...

Looking forward to the road trip u mention, looking forward to tasting all the good food with u, looking forward to so many many things... love the smile and awkward when we see each other at wrk.. hehe

A blessing in disguise!

2009-11-14T23:42:00.003+08:00

He has finally stopped! And I wana thank you for finally stopping to sms me... I knew it.. that he will never persist... coz he don't love me from the start... I persist that I am just a passerby to his life... for he is a materialistic man while im those who wanted a simple and contented life...

Have been close to this particular someone lately, and i seriously wana thank him for being with me for the past one month when all thing just sucks!!! Thanks K! People have been asking... and I would only say, "He is a policeman", and I will maintain my stand... he is just another policeman...

Thanks for the night drive, letting me cry, letting me grumble, letting me nag and letting me feel comfortable... I appreciate all that you have done... even if it is just a "Mei Li De Wu Hui"... I am glad to have you around... and thanks for wanting me to think carefully, I will... because I dun wan to treat you as a float as well... for u r too nice a person...

And my dearest xinyi is back... I wana meet u up real soon!!! I MISS U!!!!

2009-10-22T13:51:00.004+08:00

On 20Oct2009, Juliet had our 2nd sports day at Jurong JC.... and we the BPians... managed to clinch the champions again... ops... shld be taking the humble pie instead... and I had few times of roller coaster ride when someone is so fickle minded that she keep want run, dun wan run... and im totally pissed until my dearest OO Aileen is so nice to want to gve up her role for me to compete in... so sweet of her!!!

Her(Runner) scandal claimed that she is faster then me... and ask mi to think at the big picture... WTF!!!!! I am quite sure I am faster... but i kept quiet because they feel that "fat fat canot run"... and i had the last laugh when she came in last for the 100m dash... hahahaha... *evil*

And someone else injured therefore I upgrade from a reserve to a thrid runner of the 4x1oom race partnering Mdm Aileen, Aisah Bacin and lastly clarissa for it... and after running... the person says, "i regret for not putting u in the 100m dash... *roll eyes*... too late... even my CO told me, "I am shocked by ur running speed"... ahaha... and everyone was like running to me and telling me congrats when someone watch in jealousy and saying stuffs like "if not for me, u also cant run and im so proud of u for standing in"... what the fuck... she sounds so sarcastic and im pissed!!!! U SO GD.. run urself la... hmm...

And I reali *hugs* sisi for encouraging me and telling me dun care them... heheeh... We got 2nd in the race... woohoo.... wana comment of fatty cant run... think twice... hehehe

2009-10-08T22:02:00.002+08:00

我想他... 真地好想他...

Are you doing well? Its already a habit for me to be concern for him... wondering how have you been? I dun deny i miss you... havent see you for some time le... how are you?

Silly isnt it... when people dun care anymore... why are you still holding on?

2009-09-26T22:37:00.002+08:00

Someone close is drifting apart... drifting away until I am unable to reach out and hold on...

So tired.. mentally and physically...

I need a break... a break to go out and take a long walk alone...

When someone you loves no longer am so important to you... what is going to happen next? I used to love so much... but now the heart seems numb...

I feel helpless... lost... depressed...

I dont want things to turn out like that... But U make my heart turn cold and dead!

2009-09-13T20:56:00.000+08:00

I LOVE TO SPEND TIME WITH YOU!!! THANK YOU FOR MAKING MY DAY!!!!!

2009-08-16T23:23:00.008+08:00

Woohoo... just reach home from a long outing day and I had fun!

Catch BRUNO at Cineleisure... We had a small bickering session on the way there but all turns out well for the latter... hmm, it is a fun but really coarse show so whoever who wana have a gd laugh... go and laugh ur heads out.. i gave it a 4 out of 5 stars as the duration of the movie is too short and the MDA sensored alot of the parts which is the funniest and exotic off... hahah...

After that, went to tampines to shop ard the giant, ikea and courts... and after months of thinking and considering.. i bought a macbook!!! woohoo... happy like what la... coz its the aluminium one... woohoo, wats more it come with a free HD... hmm... pampering myself huh...

Driving back for dinner on CTE and spotted one car plate super familiay SDY2345.... Suzuki Grand vitera... hahaha... and yes he is Mr Tan Yuen Siang... sms him immediately and it was such an coincidence... gotta get use to using macbook and hope all goes well... heheh... i enjoy my day although there is abit of scuffle... im looking forward to the next...

2009-08-06T00:09:00.003+08:00

Ended... it has finally ended after dragging and dragging... everything just sucks to the core the first day when I just go around doing nothing and death is the only word that came into my thought... and doing so much stuffs, he still dun appreciate... but after thinking, crying until my eyes r swollen... i told myself it cant go on, and now, im doing fine and good...

For the past two yrs and 7mths... whenever i have time, he will be my priority... even planned to meet pals, last min i will stood them up when he says he is free to meet up... planning surprises, doing alot of stuffs, even wore mini denim skirt... when he wanted me to... frds says that ive changed... and im simply just crazy... haa... maybe ba... but gimme time... yvonne is coming back... and she will be as happy go lucky as the past...

Guys, u gotta get used to the swollen eyes and deep in tots yvonne for the time being... but it wont be long...

They tell mi to tink of the bad... instead of the happy times... i can... i think i can...

And Benn, hang on, i will think about it really carefully... Remy, im reali in doubts when u said u wana get me back to ur side... haha... r u serious???

2009-07-23T18:43:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRINCESS YANZI and HAIRY WILLIAM!!!!!

The Answer Is.....

2009-07-12T14:27:00.003+08:00

Went for Yanzi's concert "The Answer Is.." yesterday with William, Wenkai, and two of william's sisters... it was such a spectacular and we were all so high... and there is occassion that william stood up and dance... too high... and Yanzi is such a princess... a princess who keep me going... she said there is time that we will feel tired... so just take a break.. and move on... everything will be just fine... Love her to the core... she is so PRETTY!!!! Here is some of the photos... YANZI ROCKS!!!! Looking forward to her new album and another concert!!!!!

Dancing Queen

Orange... visual...

Princess look happy

The first appearance.. classic gold...

The Ticket

2009-07-07T18:16:00.003+08:00

He is leaving, and no matter what I do now will not stop him anymore... for he is persistant and determined...

I have decided to release... no matter what is going to happen to me... im prepared to let go...

For this two years plus its not easy coming so far... but for a guy, it could be so easy to let go just to pursue his dreams... even when he is around with me now, i still have the urge to just cry... what will happen if he were to leave, i dare not think...

He is going over to Aust with fatty bitch.. both of them already secure places in schools... and I was not aware until recent... which leave me have no time to stop him...

They told me to let go... they told me not to be stupid to accept the successful application of one year leave... they told me that its not worth it... they told me......

I will be strong, I have to be strong... no wonder that fatty told me to enjoy this one year while i still could... i finally understand...

My heart is bleeding, my tears are rolling, my appetite is going down...

Help me GOD!

2009-06-27T22:37:00.004+08:00

A tired day of work although there is not much reports... partnering amran today and occasionally, weizhi came and join us for gossips... the time passes fast with gossips.. but oh god.. forgive my mistakes... hee..

Had Mac for the meal of the day and I had my all time fave HOT FUDGE SUNDAE!!!! woohoo... it cool me down and make me relieve from stress... i love it... Bi, if we quarrel again next time, and happen that nearby got Mac... buy me that... eheh...

Was looking thru the application for unpaid leave.. wah one month notice... followed by all the interviews... tired... Hope everything goes on smoothly.. and hope it is not a waste of my time, again...

After handoveer was laughing non stop at the team office when myself and azman was doing all the stupid things like moonwalking and singing and doing weird position to make the whole team laugh... ahaha... i wish everyday can be so free... ops did i say the word?? hee...

I WANA BE FREE!!!!!

*Family having a belated fathers day buffet tmr... sorry that im going to damp ur mood but i dun tink i have the mood to celebrate when my dad isnt even around by my side for another one year! Dad, i miss u!*

2009-06-26T23:57:00.001+08:00

My lady girl is back in Singapore... but she told me she gotta be quarantine... hahaa... was listening to her cute complain and it sounds silly... i want to meet my lady real soon before u proceed back... hugs to my ladygirl LEE XINYI... hehehe...

I love to spend time with YOU... even thou its short sometimes... I always feel happy and pampered... Botak Jones... Ice-cream... holding hands and chitchatting under the stars...

*BLISS*

2009-06-22T20:20:00.002+08:00

A fun but tiring day I have at Juliet... Taser course today and everything is so happening... initially went there with fear that I might not do well but I perform during the scenario test.. and the trainer praise me in front of everything without me knowing why he asked the rest to give me a round of applause.. i was kinda stunned and he explained that usually when the assaliant "attacked"... the female sheild party will be screaming or backoff and be in a state of shocked but im the only one who fought back... hahah... I martial arts background mah...

Just finished a good dinner packed from NPC coffeeshop but it was a lonely one... He is out there at the family chalet.. or is he.. I dun wana doubt so much as I am tired...

IMISSYOU!

2009-06-18T22:11:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOYFRIEND!!!

He said he look like some big boss in this pic... ahhaa...

Contented Bday Bf

Cute but silly look

Siloso Beach is very "sweet" to provide Jap bath robe.. ahaha

Ask him to hug from behind he looks like carrying me... hahaha

Just reached home not long after two long and fun filled days with my man... he has explained everything and I seriously think that BITCH is a monster... sorry bibi... for everything... but hope u enjoy the things I arranged for u... ILOVEU!!!!

2009-06-15T23:25:00.002+08:00

I tot he will be my man for life... I tot I have already found the one... I tot the "yue ding" of 31Dec2010 is for real... I tot he really had become a good boy... a perfect dream bf I have... I tot he has change...

He told me it was all just an misunderstanding.. he told me not to belueve that fatty bitch... tell me how to?

I dun wish for anything... I just wana spend 17th and 18th nicely...

That's all i ask for...

2009-06-15T00:23:00.002+08:00

I SCREAM!
ICRY!
IASKED!
ICHECKED!
IGAVEUP!

AND FINALLY HE TOLD ME EVERYTHING! A MISUNDERRSTANDING??? I SERIOUSLY DO NOT KNOW.. I JUST WANA SPEND WED AND LET EVERYTHING JUST STOP!
THANK YOU BEEN FOR ALL UR MSGS.. THEY CAME ON TIME.. ILOVETOBEDOTE!

AFTER WED... U WILL SEE A NEW YVONNE... UPLIFT! AND MAYBE SLIM DOWN... NO APETITE...

SORRY TO MY GANG... I MISSED THE LOOKED FORWARD STEAMBOAT!

GIMME TIME ALONE.. I PROMISE TO BE FINE...

2009-06-13T23:07:00.002+08:00

I LOVE CHOCOLATES! LOVE MCDONALDS HOT FUDGE SUNDAE! LOVE M&Ms CRUNCHY! LOVE KINDER BUREANO! INDULGE!

MY SWEET LITTLE DEAREST XINYI... GET WELL SOON!!!

2009-06-09T23:50:00.002+08:00

So sleepy despite sleeping for half a day after night shift yesterday.. misses Mr Tan Yuen Siang as our TL.. all the fun and laughters... hmm.. and the durian picking session...

Went out with Bibi today for dinner at Yishun Northpoint Xinwang... my man was so sick that he kept coughing.. my heat aches... must get well soon k.. coming up with some reali nice, cheeky, touching and wonderful bday plans for my man.. this is the third bday we are celebrating together.. hope he likes it..

Seeing him tmr again.. but visiting dad in the morning and subsequently going to get some groceries with mum.. have a farewell lunch at Guilin HomeTeamNS tmr.. wondering shld i go... coz sms Mr tan and he infd he will not be attending.. abit no point if go too... hmm shall see.. and will be having a fun day with my man tmr.. hee.. oh ya.. my VICOM inspection..... yawnx...

I am broke... stupid ah gong not giving any bonus at all... never earn money... I DOUBT!!!

2009-06-07T22:26:00.002+08:00

YvOnNe iS tIrEd... sO tIrED... arGh...

Just reached home not long after washing up after a long long day of work... didnt have a gd sleep ytrday due to the spoilt aircon and humid weather.. oh GOD pls help... the weather really drained my energy.. having migraine due to lack of sleep... supposely to take turns to rest with william but after his rest... CUSTOMERS start coming until 1927hrs then we have time to stop... geez... it has been a long time since we were that busy...

I wana rest... I need massage... i need a spa treat!!!

2009-06-03T23:27:00.002+08:00

我累了

我不想再继续下去

经过这么长时间，你还是没有改变

我累了

我决定离开

Take good care of yourself...

2009-06-02T23:27:00.002+08:00

Bad migraine strikes me again... and if i cry, it will become worst... every once a month... it will come and even after taking the doctor recommended eveing primose... it doesnt seems to help much.. help me!!!

I am just a simple typical girl who wana get settled down and have my own little family... i do not have to live in a big house or have lots of money... just let me be with the one i love everyday and lemme wake up seeing him the first and i will be contented..

I am so tired.. so tired that i do not know when I will suddenly collaspe and never wake up...

HE jump down and ended his wonderful, fruitful, full of future life just within a few seconds.. just because HE cant take the stress and cant cope them well... Is death the best way to end everything? After U passed on, it it really the END??? I ponder.....

2009-05-28T22:43:00.002+08:00

Just reach home from dinner with bibi... had a filling and fattening meal at LongHouse... oh my gosh.. gotta run!!! but am having the ever tiring one week inhumane two days wrk one day off roster now due to the IISS... tiring... im totally drained... and my silly man make a handphone pouch and also a small cutie photo frame for me.. haha.. how sweet.. and also wana thanks meimei for helping me with my car insurance thingy.. save me alot of trouble, time and money.. hee... happy day!!! But TIRING!!!

Sweet isn't it... ahhaha..

Thank you Bibi!!!

2009-05-21T00:02:00.002+08:00

Habing a high profile boyfriend isnt easy.. if anyone were to ask me if i regret having a high profile boyfriend, i would say no.. but it will only be this once and last time.. I will never ever date someone who is so "educated" anymore.. its stressful and tiring... two years plus of relationship.. what would happen to u if u found out that u are still being taken for granted? I used to be devastaed.. giving up on everything and was a zombie.. but this relationship make me grow and learn alot... been thru so much and give in so much but it still is not working out for the outcome that i wanted.. i wont blame them for scolding me, for laughing at me.. coz i brought it all upon myself... it will be gd also that he leaves.. so i can concentrate well ba.. a sensitive contract in front of me waiting for me to travel down and sign... a contract that will keep my career strong in future.. i will sign, i tink i will sign.. nothing to hold on anymore.. but gimme sometime... after i finish my diploma... the dotted line will not be empty anymore...

So tired.. so tired to put on a happy front in view of everyone when u aint happy at all... will i turn crazy in due course?? haha... hope not.. i just wana relax and have fun now..

and to that KPO person.. guess u will be updating ur parents again... whatever it is.. since u like to poke ur nose into ppl affairs and tell the elders about it so be it.. KARMA!!!

Last but not least... I MISS LEE XINYI!!!!! Planning to go aussie de.. but due to IISS and youth olympics... leave freeze... sad!!!

2009-05-05T23:45:00.003+08:00

Woohoo... i got a new phone... shopping with bibi today in town and got a new HP IPAQ... a impluse buyer i am... but no regrets... and bibi will be getting it on fri... yeah... we both have the same phone.. hee.. again.. first HTC touch, now this... hee.. love it!!!

And that stupid bitch got nothing to do... she msg mi using web sms ytrday note at wee hours when i was sleeping... nothing better to do... and dun even dare to leave real name... im pissed... F**K!!!!

2009-05-04T20:32:00.000+08:00

ILOVEMYLIFE!

ILOVEMYFAMILY!

ILOVEMYMAN!

ILOVEMYFRIENDS!

2009-04-29T23:49:00.003+08:00

My heart is bleeding... not because of ray... but because of something else... im in very deep pain... a pain nothing can describe... for the past few months.. he company me to go thru it somehow.. but now, i feel that im the main cause... im in pain... my heart is bleeding... i cant help but to cry... my heart just unknowingly burts... BADLY!!!

2009-04-27T22:38:00.003+08:00

Went to Jo's house warming the other day but the main focus of the day is little sweetie Izzah... she has grow so big in just five months... cute... was playing with her the whole two hrs and she is such a honey... pretty little baby girl... love her so much.. heh... and after that went home nap coz not well.. Look at the photos and you know what a sweetie is she... video too slow to upload.. other time perhaps.. hee..

She is a SWEET!!!

Perfect wallpaper

Myself and sweetie

Met bibi yesterday and today... ytrday was somehow tired so went Yishun shop awhile and went home shortly after... just now met him to have botak jones and i have swank and eggs... woohoo... nice to eat and filling... but weather is so super hot sia.. hope it will turn better soon... coz reali buay tahan...

Tmr gotta work again... sianx.. but lucky nite shift need not work.. coz got badminton intra-comp on wed and thurs... hee... hope to clinch 2nd tis time round coz last yr got third... jiayou!!!

2009-04-24T23:40:00.003+08:00

New top from Purpur, HAPPY!!!

Finally exams is over and Im one more step closer to getting my diploma.. yeah... happy... but one thing very angry with the FIT lecturer.. he told us can dun study internet and world wide wed but there is two qns came out about the topics.. angry!! we have decided to write a complain and wonder if it helps.. hmm... and when I stepped into the exam room, alot of ppl shake head after seeing all the qns.. lucky i got focus afew of topics which came out.. heng.. hope can make it.. hmm... after exams came home and change to car and subsequently drove over to meet meimei and lulu at JP... so hungry.. and we settle down for LJS as long time never eat that, subsequently went shopping.. i bought a sweet top.. a top that is so not me but meimei and lulu say it looks good when i tried it so i bought it.. its too sweet for a sporty person like me.. heh.. happy shopping... looking forward to outing on sunday with him.. i wana PLAY!!!! kbox, bowling, shopping!!! Post exams activities... heh...

2009-04-21T14:29:00.002+08:00

One paper down... and three more to go... Fundamentals of InfoTech, Biz statistics and last but not least accounting and finance... preparing and saving up for my degree program... excited to see myself in five yrs time.. Xinyi went back ytrday nite.. i miss u my lil sweetie... shall visit u if got chance... will only get to see her next year if not... sobx... and im missing u bibi... see ya tmr for revision... hee... get well soon... gotta head back to books again... coz evening going to meet my gang for dinner and chill... looking forward to seeing them... Aimei bday ytrday... hee.. hope she likes the pressie i got for her... hee... coz i love them myself.. for a non girly girl like me.. i guess she will like it..

*MUGGING * MUGGING* MUGGING*

2009-04-19T21:12:00.003+08:00

Parker Pen from GuoCai.. thks brother..

Cute "Pooh bear" baby set for Mdm Aileen

Taking a break out from mugging and decided to post a blog... after bibi spotted my blog sure nag at me... sure say "huh.. ask u to study go and blog huh..." hee... but dun care u... just wana show off something really cute... went for shopping today and bought this reali cute baby set for mdm aileen... i was like going "wah.. so cute.. aiyo.. cute.." here and there while we shop at the baby section... and finally decided to get one winnie the pooh baby set for little kaeden... he sure look cute wearing that suit.. so looking forward... and thks GuoCai for giving me the parker set as a belated bday pressie... appreciate it.. having giddy spells again... sigh... and im meeting my bibi tmr for study again.. yeah.. i miss u.. love meeting u everyday... two yrs plus liao im still nt sick and tired of u.. hehehe

2009-04-17T22:13:00.001+08:00

Alright... im his baby again and he is my bibi again... we will meetup to talk on sunday when both have cool down... am i unreasonable? am i just being shaky? what am i feeling? he told me he loves me... but we are two hot headed person... carrying on got future? holding on is it a right choice? i ponder...

A story of 2yrs 4mths 16days...

2009-04-17T00:38:00.002+08:00

A story of 2yrs 4mths 16days... something that i hold so much hopes... something that i put in so much... has ceased when i wanted it to.. he said im unreasonable.. well maybe im.. i felt insecure... shaky... how does it feels like when someone whom u r so close to suddenly is going to be a stranger of ur life... can someone tell mi? how am i going to overcome this shit that i never encounter before?

im afraid that i cant overcome it.. but denure told me.. "Girl, what don kill u only makes u stronger" a phrase so easy to say.. but so hard to achieve.. i salute jiejie... she is brave.. or is she? perhaps we have the same genes that is soft hearted.. but tis time.. it is nt like any other time.. i smile when we parted.. release? perhaps yes ba...

Chris told me.. "He is the key to ur heart, and also the lock in ur heart.. to unlock it... u need to search for the key.. take ur time.. no rush my dear vonie"... thank u chris.. i dare nt tell lulu n meimei.. i dun wan to affect them.. they r going to genting tmr.. dicky going to msia on sat.. my close pals r all nt going to be by my side tis time when things reali get tough.. i needa wander ard... all alone tis time round.. he used to be someone so close to my heart... to get rid totally and turn him into a stranger... I CAN DO IT!!!! going to take a long long break... i need support.. i need support... hugs used to be there... but becoz of him, i turn them all down and nw their hugs belongs to others...

on 30Mar2009... his msg that i love "Baby, i really love u.. wanna be with u.. play bowling with u every wkend.. spend time with u.. hug u every moment u need mi and walk with u tis lifetime".. our "lifetime" ended in 2yrs 4mths 16days... i am smiling... tearing... i will miss u... do take care... but from tis moment onwards.. we are totally stranger...

i AM SO TIRED... SO TIRED THAT I WANA CLOSe MY EyES AND SLeeP BUt NEvEr wAkE Up...

2009-04-06T22:32:00.002+08:00

My dear lady girl is back in SG!!! Happy!! And once i reach SG ytrday after a trip with colleagues... i called her but she was watching movie therefore she called me back later in the night when i was preparing to sleep... she was complaining to me about what has happened on her celebration and cried in the midst of talking to me... my poor girl... sorry for not being there... *hugs* Wonder why some people just have nothing better to do and poke their noses in others' affair... dun u have something better to do.. and hey there, stop talking bad about my poor lady la.. she alrdy went there and having to cope on herself isnt easy.. instead of giving encouragement... u guys gossip gossip and gossip!!! Getting super extremely pissed... my heart and mummy's heart ache badly when she cried on the phone when talking to me.. sigh... silly girl... jiayou... let them say whatever they wan... jiejie will support u de silly.. dun cry k... i was so blind to encourage that someone when she is depressed... two headed snake... scary!!!

Will be meeting up my lady girl real soon... hmm wonder if she will like the pressie i got for her.. hee... it is chosen by my man and myself... "designer taste" he call it.. hee.. ok i trust u... hope she like it!!! Gd luck to bibi for the design competition!!! Win alot alot wo... See bibi on fri... and see meimei on sat!!

2009-04-05T20:47:00.003+08:00

IM BACK!!! Went for a 2D1N trip with eleven others and its a trip full of shopping... hehe... spend 100over dollars but manage to get things for everyone i love.. hehe.. that time went with bibi also never shop so much, coz got aisah as a shopping partner its different... girls are girls... heh.. sorry to make bibi worry.. i oso worry mah... never rec his reply when i websms him.. hehe.. some network prob.. sorry bibi.. shall upload photos after collating.. never really use my camera coz got two SLR camera taking photos all the way... hehe... contented with a filling A&W.... meeting bibi tmr... hmm... I MISS U!!! And happy birthday to my dearest xinyi, sorry for not being able to attend ur 21st... date crashed... sorry... muackx

2009-04-03T22:12:00.004+08:00

Was suppose to meet him today in town at 1pm but when i reach newton mrt the bus stop at 1236hrs, i called him only to hear that he is still sleeping at home... i then alight the bus immediately and took a cab home... crying on the cab.. am i wrong? I woke up early in the morning to give him morning call at 11.15am cause if i call too late, he will blame me for not giving him ample time to prepare.. and from his character, i know he will go back to sleep so at 11.34am, i called again... he told me he is preparing and told me not to worry, he wont be late... so i went to prepare and dress nice nice and rush out... i became pissed and very upset... we had a very big fight yesterday due to some reason... and i gave him chance again... u guys must be thinking.. HEY SOFT HEARTED again... but i guess that's me.. useless huh...

Whenever we quarrel, he told me to cool down... i'll be leaving in a few hours... with tears in my eyes... and a broken heart...

*U told me u r willing to give up everything for me... only to lemme find out u r still sourcing out for schools... y do u lie when u dun mean it... im tired... i can only wish u all the best... and to tell u... be well when im not ard... and i never regret loving u... thou its full of tears... i will not forget the laughter and joy.. still the same old sentence.. we are from two worlds... we are not suited for each other..*

~ILOVEU!~ IWILLMISSU!

2009-03-24T23:44:00.004+08:00

Thank u bibi for companying me thou u r sick

Pressie from bibi

I HAVE TURNED 24th... goodness... two rounds of cycles has passed... had a great bday celebration with the rest of the remaining L4 on 21st Mar 2009 and it has been great.. went for a gd jap meal and went k-songs... they bought me a choco exotic cake and sang bday song for me... make me shy.. awaiting for the photos as they slowly upload them into the comp... *wait wait wait*.... sunday met michelle for shopping trip and we reali had fun... she is such a cute girl coz even when buying bra and all are females... she is so super SHY!!!!!! hahaa...

Had two fun filled days with bibi... thank u bibi... im really happy and enjoyed myself... Meet him up yesterday and had our meals at CHOMPCHOMP at serangoon when initially tot was having at thomson... subsequently went over to JP NTUC as it is the only 24hrs NTUC but our luck isnt that good and it is closing at 11pm so we make our purchases quickly... sianx... just our day!!! After shopping, drove over to have supper at UBT Ah mei toast and proceeded back home later on... got a good massage from bibi and then play and talk until about 2plus then sleep... thank u bibi for singing me a bday song... at our comfort zone... and being the first on my bday... *hugs* but poor bibi was later not feeling well and keep vomiting and hvaing slight fever... dun over exert next time k... *LOVEU* Today we plan to go klunch but was too tired so sleep until 1pm den woke up... and dearest mummy cooked us mian xian... so nice... a good lunch and later went over to watch "Hotels for dogs" at plaza Spore... nice show... recommended... very cute, funny and touching... heee... supposely wana watch Departures... but we were too late and couldnt make it on time.. while shopping ard in PS... saw little crayon shin minitures... but its by luck to see if u got it... so bibi bought one for me... and it lil shin sister... thou not crayon shin... but its still cute and i love it... oh and did i mention bibi bought perfume for me as bday pressie... PARIS HILTON perfume... nice smell and i guess its expensive... thksbibi... ILOVEIT!!!! ILOVEU!!!!!

2009-03-17T17:31:00.003+08:00

Yvonne has started to be on leave........

Like a year back... he has disappear again... I reali am so tired and im giving up... Like the saying goes... when a woman really give up hope... no matter what u do will never win her back anymore... I am tired... and I am totally letting go... I hate no replying of smses, i hate no answering of calls... its all back... so much so that i dun wana give a damn anymore... that fatty bitch call me early in the morning and woke me up from my sleep telling me to stop harassing her bf... hmm... how odd... screw u bitch... who is the one messing the relationship... fark u!!! Bday coming in a week... i believe this is the "BEST" bday pressie i ever get...

Zenden asked me if i will help him fulfil his bday wish by being his gf... make me laugh but ponder for awhile... i wanted to be love... and not to love a man who don appreciate anymore... and afterall, he is also a PO... matches huh... we shared the same friends... same bosses... hmm... gimme some time and i shall give u an answer... im just scare to take a step in again as i do not wish to get hurt anymore...

The feeling totally sucks to be cheated again and again... I am going to take a long long break and travel... any takers to follow? wana go to those exotic countries before i start working again...

LIAR, IHATEU!!!

2009-03-11T22:24:00.004+08:00

Just reached home after a bad day of work and decided to blog while waiting for his calls... had a small tiff with him ytrday and he still keep persisting and tolertating my nonsense... talked about marriage, where to stay after marriage... etcetc... feel a sense of insecurity therefore wanted to settle down... but is the time right??? I ponder... so tired... so tired of everything...

Today just sucks to the core... except for that few seconds while im at DHQ... early morning went to work and had a tiff with no2 about failing the run... i hate it when kena sarcastic remarks... it my "pa sa" la... fail also wont affect u... kaox... i run like wana die u still say never put effort... try work and study at the same time... f***... pissed... in the afternoon went to DHQ for despatch.. and was telling hisham that how i wish i can see my idol... SUPT KOH WK... hehehe... and im like nagging and nagging wanting to see him to hisham and POP... he appear in front of me and im like darn shocked and hisham hide beehind the wall laughing... aiyo... so paiseh can... wonder if he hears my "complain"... ehhe...

After despatching... went back sector and everything goes abit well and No3 call and make so much noise about his stuffs which leaves me scolding him back and hanging up the phone... complained to No1 and lucky he settled the stuffs subsequently... suddenly missed TAN YUEN SIANG so much coz if he is around... evrything will be nicer... can u come back to be our TL again... u r deeply missed... *sobsob*

Returned to base and report off and found out that everything is not done so i help to finish up the nonsense and here i am returned home after like 20hrs of work... NO OT PAY!!!!! sianx... i wish to have a change of environment... tired...

Oh, sweetie OO mentioned that we cant be release for WTT due to manpower problem and she is like consoling me... so sweet of her... hmm i like this OO... such a nice senior officer... heheh... hugs...

After complaining so much... still waiting for his call... today is his mum chinese bday...

*HAPPY BDAY Auntie susan" Bought a gift for her and will pass it to him on sat... hope she likes it... hehehe...

*Counting down 13days to my 24th* Yearning for pastamania and shokudo OMU RICE!!!!!

Thank you aisah bacin for buying the bag for me from ur trip far far away... thanks JULIET for giving me the voucher as bday gift... ahhaa

2009-03-08T20:47:00.005+08:00

"Marley and me" screenshot

My little "crayon shin" i will miss

Just reached home after a good dinner and nice movie with bibi... but one thing bad happened today... i lost the above "crayon shin" that bibi bought for me when he went genting... sobsob... and also my eye hurts coz bibi accidentally hit me with the air pump extension when he help to pump my tyre just now... OUCH!!! hope it wont swelll coz got a feeling it will swell soon...

"Marley and me"... starring Jennifer Aniston(prettiest "ang mo" woman in my eyes) and Owen Wilson... a realistic, touching and cute movie that i would reccommend people to go watch... it show how a family is formed and working it out not forgetting to show that dog is really a man's best friend... sobbed twice during the show and thks bibi for comforting and being by my side when i sobbed just now...

Before the show, went for lunch at "Xin wang" at Cineleisure and i applied the membership card... full of benefits and got much discounts for members... highly reccomended for ppl who loves the food just like i am... hahaha... but a small member fee which is S$30/- bucks but given S$45/- voucher for u to dine there next time so worthwhile la... hahaa...

After movie went to shop ard in Kallang leisure park and i bought a pair of court shoes there... finally gotten one after pondering for so long... and got a nike one at a gd bargain... subsequently, drove over to have my fave "bak chor mee" at upper thomson road and went back home after that...

2009-03-07T17:07:00.002+08:00

CTCP Race finally ended... after weeks of planning and few late night up and not enough sleep... it ended with three cheers of "hip hip hurray".... thks everyone for making it happen... so tired sia... mutalib, william, myself and lina... thks for cheering each other this few nights... its really tough but it has finally ended with everything appreciating us... hahaha...

Hvanet have much tume for mummy... wana spend a nice time with her next week... tmr will be meeting bibi for movie and relaxation... i miss u badly too... hhehehe...

Just wana have a gd sleep now and not think for anything now... will be starting assignment next week... i need a break... seriously need it...

2009-03-02T22:55:00.002+08:00

A day coming to an end... reflections for yesterday and today...

Meetup with Gang of five yesterday at Vivo and went to watch "My bloody Valentine 3D" with them... oh ya, did I mention Bibi came along... the show was exciting la... not worth watching it in 3D coz nothing special... so whoever wana watch it, just go for normal 2D will do, no point wasting another extra 4bucks.. but the movie really got me tensed up and kinda scare that bibi and me hold our hands real tight when some parts before the murderer appear...

somehow or rather, am pissed off with the gang coz we are treated as thou invisible from the start i meet them... i tried to be composed in the beginning but it is really too much for me to bear... true that he might have done me wrong last time... but he is better now.. im disappointed, disappointed that how you gys who is so close to be handle this... after that i left but they keep calling me... twenty missed calls on my mobile when i saw it... mei told me edmund and lornie quarrel... then want me to go back... but im pissed myself... ended the day with a small bickering with me and make it up after having a small talk under the rain at Pierce Reservoir...

Fell when walking down the stairs today... how clumsy... or is that bitch cursing me... OMG!!!!! I finally know her hotmail... after making some checks... no wonder she left such a nick in my blog tat time... im so tired... so freaking tired of all the shit she create... he already decided who he wants... why cant u just scram... fatty ugly bitcH!!! Im so farking pissed with her...

...I miss u...
...my leg hurts...
...i need a hug badly...
...i treasure the friendship with my gang but i dont wish to see it ruin just because of what he did in the past...

2009-02-27T23:57:00.002+08:00

Yvonne is picking herself up from the mess that has happened... what don't kill me will only make me stronger... nearly gone once but have learnt from it... grow up alot... losing the precious and facing it alone most of the time... it has only make me become stronger... now what i need seriously is a BIG break... i wana do things i have not done before... reading the magazine... there is so many things that I have not done before... travelling alone, get ready drunk without any friends around, go bungee, etcetc... im heading out for a swim again tomolo... alone... i only feel refresh and awake when im inside the water... im learning to let go... seeing peiyun deal with it is so hard... we shall walk hand in hand together and overcome it my darling girl... and with so many friends around who loves me... i can do it...

Funny cabby

Partner William and JieYong today... fun and exciting day with chasing and laughing alot inside the car... and the hairy monkey william actually fell asleep while driving.. so tired little moneky... must be up to some monkey biz ytrday nite... hahaha... and look at the pic i have took... hey its a cab... how odd to see such a "sporty" cab... we laugh our lungs out when spotted this funny taxi... what is the earth coming to???!!!!!!

2009-02-24T12:34:00.004+08:00

22nd Feb 2009

"i love u" done by him

Always that shy when ask him take photo

Oinky with "i love u"

Meet up with him on sunday as im not well on saturday and stayed home the whole day sleeping... we went to have dinner at KFC then watched "Slumdog millionaire" at Marina GV... initially wanted to eat swensens but my dearest oinky actually shop until forgot the time so ended up settling our lunch at kfc... yawnx... so, decide to go for swensens maybe on our next outing ba... slumdog actually have a nice storyline but its abit messy thou as it flashback here and there making me abit giddy... but the ending is a typical indian ending with dances and music... hahaha... after movie, walked ard at marina and suntec and subsequently went over to have dinner at AMK hub.. initally have other plans but as the time is late, we planned on our next meetup... hope to see u soon...

23 Feb 2009

Partner with Samir and the new OCT guy JieYong and it was a busy day... no break for the whole day but luckily i got two partners who take the initiative in doing everything especially samir... maybe coz he is going to ORD ba... haha... my little bro... be well after u enrol and teach in NIE... hahaha... noti little boy.. when time to take a break at 6pm... that idiot go take OE as well... make me and my two poor boys go for msg last min and engaged all the way... argh... hate him...

24 Feb 2009

Working night shift later... gotta go sleep again in awhile... and received a msg from some anoymous... stop bugging me bitch!!! get lost!!!

2009-02-19T23:42:00.004+08:00

Angels last team event

IDOL & Me

Team Juliet 2009

Team ladies 2009

Juliet rowers

Went for dragonboat competition today at Kallang SDBA... had a fun day and most imptly get to know my idol... DY COM J DIV... he is so super handsome la... hahaha... from the above pic u have seen... a man i have seen almost ten years back on crime watch and he hasnt change abit since then... hahaa... he is the one that make me rush back from school or outings every once of the month to watch crimewatch... haha... that's why my idol... and partial reason why I join the force other than triple 9... hahaha... thou we only got fifth out of eleventh or twelveth teams... we are happy and contented... Dicky say we got coordination but perhaps abit slow that's why we lost... hmm... shall try again next time... enjoyed myself the fullest... but very very burnt and red now... like lobster... hehehe... GIRLS!!! WELL DONE!!!

Letting go...

2009-02-18T00:40:00.002+08:00

He said a relationship is about sacrifice... but why is it for the past two years i am always the one sacrificing... i am not asking u to give up ur dreams... i am just asking u to defer for another two years.. so difficult... why isit its a must for me to let go of my family, career, friends and everything here just to follow u suit... and not u sacrificing another six months for me... if u say a relationship is about sacrifices... are u doing so? Havent i sacrifice enough?

Whose gf will tolerate bf sleep with another woman, cheated on her time and time again, different women come and go, late for almost every outing... Yun told me she salute me for doing so... am i really worth the salute? I guess many call me stupid... and i gradually admit... yes i am stupid and blind by the love... but i am not going to be blind anymore... so tired... so so so tired... can someone hug me???

I submitted the email... and when I told him that, instead of hugging me tight and say thank you... he asked, "why do u do so... i havent even get a place yet..." sacrifices? That bitch commented a month back, "Enjoy the year while u still can, for u will knw why soon..."... now i know why le... u are really heading over... to meet that bitch... true... for ur good... i shld sacrifice... i will, I am letting go for now... Perhaps this is what u wan... u always dun wana be the baddie... i will be one for now... I wont act "wei da"... everyone know me as a straightforward person... So Ray, I hate u to the core... two years... "thks" for everything...

*Thks for giving me the best of two years... I grow and learn alot... mummy say u are my first love... i guess so ba... two years... thks"

2009-02-15T12:32:00.003+08:00

From him to her (Handmade roses)

From her to him (Special montege and Davidoff perfume)

Happy Vday my love

Met him for Vday celebration yesterday and it was a nice and sweet day after all... he has a handmade roses for me and even spray perfume in it... very sweet for a big man like him... but this might be our last vday together if i decide not to go US with him... a painful decision to be made because i will need to give up everything to go over with him... i have spoke to mummy and she ask me to decide myself... but her answer to me is not favourable... sigh... talked to alot of ppl but all not very favourable... sad!!! We went to have our lunch at Ajisen at Novena and then went to watch movie and shopping at Lido... watch "Look for a star" by Andy Lau and ShuQi... duno y but i sob while some parts, or i shld say many parts during the show... emo? or is it reflecting my love life now? Saw Azman and Tina with little Ricky after the show... OMG, lil ricky is super cute la... hahaha... but he is super shy when i tried to play with him... hahaha... i wan my own kids... hmm... midst of the movie, that bitch msg him again... and trying to act "stranger" when being asked who is she... irritating and spoilt my mood... but he keep assuring me and coax me... i hate her... purposely chose to msg on this special day and make me cry... BITCH!!!

Later going to see Dianya off at airport with those crazy L6... we gotta miss u my dearest yaya... take gd care of urself... there sure be teasr and laughter later... *tissue*

2009-02-09T23:42:00.001+08:00

Finally have time to blog after days of running up and down... mummy was admitted to SGH on thurs and I took e-leave on sat to pei her... my poor mummy always will have a relapse if overwork and the insensitive boss still took everything for granted... hmmp!!! idiotic... and finally after days of running up and down hospital, while im resting at home today after yesterday tedious night shift, she call me and say... "u come fetch mummy later"... im so super excited... hee... and so, i woke up immediately and went over to fetch her.. hee... partner Halim and TL ytrday... hmm alot of msgs up till 4am but all is PAR... relax!!! eheheh...

After fetching mummy, went over to pray tai sui as today is the last day and its so super hot there la... wow, the heat there is really unbearable and one boy who look about 8-10yrs fainted while the ritual is on... poor boy... after praying then come home and sleep...

Supposely meeting him but we postpone it to tmr as he is having some discussion at granny's house... poor granny... and while blogging now... just received a sms from him saying that he is going washup.. ok shal wait for ur call.. heh.. and oh ya, mummy last min told me to send her to leilei there, wondering who is leilei... he is my mummy godson and he is just super FAT and cute... ahhaha... and here i am, blogging after the visiting and makan session at auntie zhu house... hehe

My dearest godbro, "Zi Lei"

*Looking forward to 14Feb2009*

Looking at death

2009-02-04T12:37:00.002+08:00

When news and email was sent out yesterday about him dead, everyone was pondering... why, when, what happened... and i finally know how it happened after reading some news... he committed suicide by burning charcoal at home... its very sad when one young male of 27yrs just passed away like that and was only discovered moments later... he himself seen so much and handle with some many before but am not able to take it when it happened to him... Life is so fragile... but humans are not treasuring it... cancer patients wanted to live, but they do not have any chance... going thru chemo and lots of suffering and ended up still lost the battle, why cant ppl just treasure it when u are so healthy and fine... what is it on earth cant be solve that u need to leave everyone around you crying and shouting for ur name... Death... approaching yet so far away... im treasuring everyone around me especially mummy when life is just so unexpected...

If "U" lose me... remember my smiles and laughter... for that will always stay in ur heart....

2009-02-02T00:53:00.008+08:00

Cake from us to dearest Yaya

L6 and sisters

Yours truly and the star (Yaya)

The whole group who contributed to the FUN

31Jan2009 - Its our two years and one month anniversary, two years back today, he gave me a surprise by telling me he got work and then appear suddenly under my block with a pair or couple ring and one red rose... very sweet huh... but on this day two years later... he came over to my house, again, but we then proceeded over to fetch godma at jurong west and later drive back to her house at CCK... after bai nian, we went to have a little shopping and eat at Lot One... after that, drove back to his place and he slept and i drove back home shortly after... meetup with my L6 at about 9pm and then have a surprise party for dianya planned solely by our dearest capable peiyun... she bk the room, cake, mixer etcetc all alone... so nice... celebrate and then went suppeer at xin wang and the party kinda ended... My dearest... pls take care of urself over at Sydney... we will miss u so much future art director...

Look at the COW behind us.. heheh

1Feb2009 - Have our lunch near upp thomson as they wanted something new, so i brought them to have the famous bak cho mee(my fave) and they all love it... hee... peiyun even want deserts after meal and all was reluctant... so full liao la... after that send them home and went home to take a short nap... evening time, lulu call me and told me to go outing... therefore meetup with the gang and we visited river ang bao... nothing much this year... hmm, boring.. shortly after, we went over to have our dinner at east coast and here am i, blogging and resting soon... tired two full days of fun and laughter...

2009-01-29T22:21:00.005+08:00

Finally ended the CNY celebration and tmr gotta go back to work... sure be dragging myself to work early in the morning tmr... boring!!! Every CNY is the same... dun find the "le qu" in celebrating it anymore... used to enjoy in the past... but not anymore... cleaning the whole house up and down... visiting on the first few days... hmm, it might only be good for the part of gathering... some ppl we dun see for a year... CNY is the only time too see each other... to know each other is still alive... and living well... ahha

First day - meetup with cousins and aunties then went to those grandaunts and granduncles house... and some we even duno how to address them... and mummy wore almost the same as her twin(sanyi) so i took a pic of them... so cute... hmm... do they look like twin? I dun feel so but some ppl just cant differ them... hmm... the one on the left is my mum and the one on the right is my sanyi... they differ by twenty three mins... the day ended with having steamboat dinner at xinyi's hse... woohoo... nice to eat... and i finally taste the difference of pricey abalone and normal abalone... hehe...

2nd day - Visiting to my house then went to 3rd aunt house for dinner... abit no meaning lo... but CNY is just the first day happening...

3rd day - Visiting to fourth and fifth fifth aunt house... then went over to fetch bibi, and after fetching bibi went over to have dinner... steamboat dinner again... at youngest uncle(uncle eric) hse at yishun... then bibi and i left after a few gambling game witht eh kids as we have a show to catch... went to cineleisure to watch "The wedding game" by fann wong and christopher lee.. Hilarious show but the story is abit expected here and there... hmm... i'll rate it 3.5 out of 5stars... hehe... romantic comedy...

Gotta end my post le... as needa go prepare for tmr work as well as waiting for his call... tmr still got class after work and then gathering at da gu house again... while bibi is having a bbq tmr in his house... should i go??? hmm... sunday meeting him to go godma's hse... hee... godma keep nagging me to bring him.. we are together for two yrs liao she still havent seen him... hehe... ok mama.. will grant ur wish this week... gd nite all...... zzzzzzzzzZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZ

2009-01-21T01:20:00.002+08:00

Today is my first off... reached home and sleep thru the day till 5plus and then woke up to prepare to meet bibi... met him at 7plus and we went to have the desired chilli crab at casurina... hmm... havent eat for a long time le and it doesnt taste as nice as the first time we had... bibi told me he will bring me to a better place near bishan the other time... thks bibi for the biscuit and also nice dinner tonight...

After having dinner and spending some time together, i went back and after that meet up with the grp of officers.. Mutalib, Jolene, William and Aisah... and here i am, just reached home after a good game of bowling with them at HomeTeamNS Bt Batok... so fun coz we are like laughing thru-out the game... oh ya, before that Mutalib brought us to one shop called Island creamary at adam rd which sells great mudpie... shall bring bibi there one day coz he simply loves mudpie... hehe... he told me to sms him once home and he will call mi if he havent rest... but ive been home like 30mins le... guess he has fallen asleep...

Having dragonboat training tmr... hope its fun... hehe... and im missing u, dearest smelly oink...

2009-01-17T19:21:00.002+08:00

Just reach home after a gd shopping trip with bibi... he must be tired waking up early in the morning and then went shopping with me going into almost every shop to try clothes... hehe... and finally after going into so many shops... i bought one dress from G2000 Pink (Casual) and one sweater from DCP... one formal one casual, guess that shld be fine for CNY ba... but im so addicted to shopping that im going to shop again on my next off... haha... going to be bankrupt.. hehe...

hmm, before shopping went to have lunch at Long John and then after shopping having a snacktime of kaya toast and ice blended at Wang which is located at the top level (My Playground). Subsequently, went over the gadgets corner and get protection cover for my psp.. heheh... actually intend to get a crystal case but bibi suggested getting silicon coz its of more protection... so i got a black one.. and it goes well with my red psp.. coolz... hehe...

At about 6plus, he took bus with me till newton then he alighted and proceed over to his granny's place... thks bibi for pei-ing mi tk bus... thou short dist.. but appreciated it.. he just called me.. reached ah ma hse liao.. thks for the heart.. hehe..

*planning for our trip on vday/my bday*

2009-01-15T12:48:00.004+08:00

My two other angels who have been making me laugh...

"Lesbian-ism"

He simply love the digital photo frame we got for him

Mr Tan Yuen Siang and the Angels

Team Charlie of Mr Tan

During the inservice walk

Went for inservice and team farewell dinner for TL the other day at Sakura Clementi woods... so touching lo.... it is a reali memorable dinner coz during MC time we also not so emotional... coz this TL is so much better la... seriously... he is very close to us and when time that he annouced he is leaving... we are so very sad... sigh... but "tien xia mei you bu shan zi yan xi"... so bobian lor... bidding farewell to him seems so sad.. especially when he is making a speech, he nearly sob.. and of course, the angels feel strongly for him.. as they say girls are the emotional creature...

Going for a sleep soon as working night shift tonite... tmr meeting bibi for outing as we have not meet up for nearly three days liao... i am missing bibi... hmm but this few days has been fine... thks bibi for the assurance... *hugs*

2009-01-12T22:04:00.002+08:00

After days of mugging... i faced the battle today.. but guess im going to lose it... but anyway... just leave to fate la... if gotta re-take sub paper also bobian... exams finally over... the next one in april... planning for trip now... i need to relax and release... hope everything goes well... backpacking alone? or shopping spree with bibi... shall see then...

Just reach home and have a good washup and after talking to him on the phone... tired after a day of shopping but not as too sleepy... shop the whole of Bugis but cant find any clothes for new year... and finally found one at little match girl but the B***** there cant fit well... ahhaha... therefore totful bibi ask for another outlet and they make the effort to check for me and finally found one in transmission from amk... so, gotta wait till friday to see if there is still stock... shall wait for their call eagerly..

Tmr will be the monthly inservice again... argh boring... who give the idea to go back for this kinda thingy on our off... hmm... but lucky aint those boring talks... it will be hortpark walk in the morning... i like outdoors!!!! hehehe... gd nite to all... my darling aisah bacin will be fetching me tmr morning... how sweet... *muacks*